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[01 Aug 2011|09:25pm]
Don’t ask yourself what you did wrong or how you could have done it differently. Don’t waste your valuable heart and mind trying to figure out why he did what he did, or thinking back on all the things he said, and wondering what was the truth and what was the lie. The only thing you need to know is that it’s really good news: he’s gone. There's a little truth behind every just kidding, a little curiosity behind every just wondering, a little knowledge behind every I don't know, and a little emotion behind every I don't care.
 I learned at a early age theres things that matter an theres things that dont  Is Rule #76: No excuses. Play like a champion! Keeps her feelings under lock & key.
  • I knew that there were no guarantees. No way of knowing what came next for me, for him, or anybody. Some things don't last forever, but some things do. Like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory you can take out and unfold in your darkest times, pressing down the corners and peering in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there. -Sarah Dessen "While you stood there, deciding to get the net... the butterfly flew away." "Show someone what they can't have and they'll just resent you. Give it to them too easy and they won't appreciate it. The key is allowing them just enough of a taste so all they want is more."
  • Truth is are getting old and get on my nerves. no offense
"I guess I have found that when there are dead ends-there are also U-turns, & if we don’t panic, He will provide us with bridges—we just need to trust there is a way."

Universal Lies: I'm not drunk. I won't hurt you. Let's stay friends. She's just a friend. I lost your number. I need time to myself. I'll start a diet tomorrow. It's not you, it's me.

"Life is to be lived. If you have to support yourself, you had bloody well better find some way that is going to be interesting. And you don’t do that by sitting around." -Katharine Hepburn

"You cannot make a commitment to uncommitted people and expect to receive commitment from them." - John C. Maxwell

I just want to give, make a difference, love, HELP. On my way and it feels so right ♥ What do you want to do?

L<3vEs me

[21 Nov 2010|01:51pm]
little big town- kiss goodbye
Stronger by Mandisa

"Take a look at yourself. Is it the person you wanna be? Is someone telling you that you can't or wont be who you want? Cuz you can. Believe that Love is out there. Believe that Dreams come true everyday. Cuz they do. Sometimes happiness doesnt come from fame, money or power. It comes from Friends and Family and the Power of knowing you will have a good life. Believe that Dreams come true everyday. Cuz they Do."

I bet you never had a clue
But I'd do anything to be with you
I'd leave this place in a heartbeat
I'd move away from my sweet home
Just to be your faithful tag-along
...I'd follow you forever
But if you're better left alone
I'll do my best to understand.

The roads have diverged now and some of us are taking seperate paths neither one is wrong... just different, but rest assured they'll never cross again.

Help someone who doesn't deserve it

"You need to learn how to select your thoughts just the same way you select your clothes every day. This is a power you can cultivate. If you want to control things in your life so bad, work on the mind. That's the only thing you should be trying to control."

"I'm choosing happiness over suffering, I know I am. I'm making space for the unknown future to fill up my life with yet-to-come surprises."

"At some point, you gotta let go, and sit still, and allow contentment to come to you."

"Dear Lord, please show me everything I need to understand about forgiveness and surrender"

"There's no trouble in this world so serious that it can't be cured with a hot bath, a glass of whiskey and the Book of Common Prayer."

 Be strong in the Lord and never give up hope. You're going to do great things, I already know. God's got His hand on you so don't live life in fear. Forgive and forget, but don't forget why you're here. Take your time and pray, these are the words I would say. ♥

 You just gotta watch it fly Stand there on the side line. Wanna swallow up your pride. Know it's gonna be alright. Wishing when I close your eyes With a kiss goodbye

‎"It's often just enough to be with someone. I don't need to touch them. Not even talk. A feeling passes between you both. You're not alone."

snuggled in the leaves and watched more shooting stars than can be counted illuminate the sky. jersey is home and these people are love.

take things as they come and do the best you can.

souls like the wings, spreading out away from bad memories, make us capable of taking off and landing. alive with understanding. let me go.

i read somewhere, how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong. but to feel strong."

‎"so if ever someone says to you 'life isn't fair, get used to it', then you should say 'well it might be if folks like you would let it be'."

 wishes for nothing in particular, but hopes for everything.

wants to go back. really really wants to go back.

‎"I want adventure in the great wide somewhere. I want it more than I can tell. And for once it might be grand, to have someone understand. I want so much more than they've got planned." Beauty and the Beast ♥

We tell ourselves 'if it didnt work out it wasnt meant to be' as if that actually means somethin We say it so casually cause we expect to stumble into somethin new just around the corner But people r rare&just cause we live a life full of farewells doesnt mean we shouldnt realize what it really means to say goodbye to somethin that meant everythin Just cause we will survive&get over it doesnt mean we should let it go

Hello, you've taken this too far. Am I just a piece to push in your board game? Have you been laughing all day long? You like it when it's hard for me to see straight. Save your goodbye, You're everywhere I go

There are better things ahead than any we leave behind. -C. S. Lewis

Being single used to mean that nobody wanted you. Now it means you're pretty, sexy, & you're taking your time deciding how you want your life to be & who you want to spend it with -Sex & the City

I might like you for a minute but I dont like your friends in my business-DRAKE

Boy you got a problem, an you ain't foolin anyone but yourself

Your heart might still be broken, but it isn't gone. If it was gone, you wouldn't be so nice.

"You used to own all of my attention. Now I'm out here clubbin' without permission. I looked up to you,
like peoples' eyes look to the moon"

"See I was your biggest fan; wish you were a better man. I'm here to let you know that I'm washin' my hands. I was happy just to be your girl. But it was me that you didn't deserve. Now its over."

"Coulda made us, coulda saved us now it's curtains down"

"I can't believe we fell this far. Straight from the sky, broken hearts. I can't believe what's come undone.
Never thought I'd meet the day that we'd be apart."

"Why am I crazy for you like that?"

"I've seen your face a million times. But now you're someone I don't recognize. The clock up on the wall, it won't stop moving, And time will not forget the things we lose."-Lucy Walsh

"This is how it goes. I will respect those who respect me, & forget those who forget me. Simple as that."

"Happiness is not a destination. It is a mood, it is not permanent. It comes and goes and if people thought that way then maybe people would find happiness more often"

‎"You can't prepare yourself for something new if your still hanging on to the old."

"I keep on fallin', in and out of love with you. I never loved someone the way that I love you. I never felt this way. How can you cause me so much pain. Cause when I think I'm taking more than would a fool, I start fallin' back in love with you. "

"This night here is perfect for telling lies. Look through the devil's eyes, what do you see when your looking at me? Has anything changed?" -Timothy Avett

""Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change"

This night here is perfect for trading sins
you can be what ive been
half way between misery and serene nights
of something like hope -Seth Avett

‎"It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that the person you've loved forever don't see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on." - Nicholas Sparks

"Here we go again, I kinda wanna be more than friends. So take it easy on me, I'm afraid you're never satisfied."

‎"And I don't need ya, don't wanna see ya."- Weezy

"Everytime you cross my mind, it takes me one second to remember how much you SUCK.(:"

"You aren't anything like your memory, at least it hangs around."

"When you actually have a good girl, say NO to hoes!"-Vinny

Put aside your sorrows for tomorrow. You live for today, for this very moment. You have the ability to change all negative situations with the use of a strong, independent mind and you'll feel so much better when you leave all your troubles behind.

"They say true love hurts.. but this coulda killed me."

"You don't deserve the pleasure to see my pain. So I'll be strong & go on my way."

"I Will remember you and all of the things that we've gone through. There is so much I can say, but words get in the way. So were not together, I will remember you." RyanCabrera

"I'll get a rocket and fly myself up to the moon of your nothing, nothing at all. And maybe I'll come in contact with somebody new, it'd be nice."

"If it wasn't your fault, then it surely wasn't mine. I said all the right things at all the wrong times, if you want to keep your heart then give me mine." -SOS

I don't need a new boy to help me, I don't need a new boy to entertian me, I can do it without a rebound. Because I got strength alone to do that for me. Being an indepedent stronger young lady is the road to take. You don't need someone to make you happy, because at the end of the day its only you. So make yourself happy

"We try to hold it in our hands, But love falls through like grains of sand. One day it's there and then it's gone. Everything changes, doesn't it?"

"You just gotta watch it fly. Stand there on the side line. Wanna swallow up your pride. Know it's gonna be alright."

"Well she was precious like a flower. She grew wild, wild but innocent. A perfect prayer in a desperate hour. She was everything; beautiful and different. Stupid boy, you can't fence that in. Stupid boy, it's like holdin' back the wind."

"Its been so long since I've seen your face, but it's better off that way.  I'm dizzy an so lost. I don't understand how you've won once again. How do you do this so well?"

"You think by now I'd learn your games. But somehow I forget."

"Now the story goes with no end, & once again your silence screams goodbye."

 Don't cry about loss, God never takes anything away without replacing it.

Each in her own way so brave, so determined, and so very desperate. Desperate to venture out, but afraid of what she'll miss when she goes. Desperate to get everything she wants, even when she's not exactly sure of what that is. Desperate for life to be perfect again, although she realizes it never really was. Desperate for a better future, if she can find a way to escape her past. -Desperate Housewives

‎"Everyday is amazing. Even if your day seems awful, everything is for a reason. Because that awful thing that happened today will bring something amazing tomorrow."

"I want you to know that when I leave t'll be the last you'll ever see of me. I tried so damn hard to fix you, to make you believe in what I see." - Ally "Cupcake" Burnett - "We Would've Broken Up Once You Heard This Song Anyway"

"Souls like the wings spreading out away from bad memories. Make us capable of taking off and landing; alive with understanding." - The Avett Brothers

Decide what to be and go be it.

"There was a dream, ene day I could see it. Like a bird in a cage a broke in and demanded that somebody free it.."

"I lost my fear in your arms. I lost my tears in your car. I lost my will in your candle-lit eyes, and all my love in your yard."

Everyone knows that seasons change; it's unavoidably obvious. But for some reason, everyone tries to avoid the fact that people do too.

‎"It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting it's sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens. But, it is never gone." -Rose Kennedy

 ‎"The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are. "-John Pierpont

"All I'd ever wanted was to forget. But even when I thought I had, pieces had kept emerging, like bits of wood floating up to the surface that only hint at the shipwreck below."- Sarah Dessen

The best thing about a picture is that it never changes, even if the people in it do. -Andy Warhol

"I ain't as good as I once was, that's just the cold hard truth. I still throw a few back, talk a little smack when I'm feelin' bulletproof. So don't double dog dare me now cause I'd have to call your bluff."-Toby Keith (: 

"Well it's a winding road, when your in the lost and found. You're a lover I'm a runner & We go 'round 'n 'round.."

‎"Well you do what you do and you pay for your sins. And there's no such thing as what might have been. That's a waste of time, drive you out of your mind."

"When everything is falling apart an you feel like your alone just remember everything you've worked for & never loose faith in yourself ."

As usual, there is a great woman behind every idiot-John Lennon

You got to love me in the light to love me in the dark. i know you understand, you know you had it comin.

We want eachother cock it an pull you run for cover an ill take the bullet

countin on tonight, suck on you. countin on a fight,

tables have turned

"use your words not mine, broken hearts still beat

‎'Without you I live it up a little more everyday, Without you I'm seeing myself so differently. I didn't wanna believe it then, but it all worked out in the end. When I watched you walk away, well I never thought I'd say.. I'm fine without you

 "Comparisons are easily done, once you've had a taste of perfection. Like an apple hanging from a tree, I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed".

‎"Hang on to her boy, with all your might. She's got so much to give, if you treat her right. In a world where things are changing fast. Ain't to many things that are made to last. Hang on to her boy, they dont' make them like that anymore."

Who knows, maybe one day we'll be perfect for each other -The O.C

And you know what? When you least expect it, something great might come along. Something better than you ever planned for
-Along Came Polly

My life is like one big awkward turtle moment.

I guess when all is said and done, you are who you are, and that should be good enough for everybody else. -Susan Tamol

"The bottom line is, life is about learning, whether you’re in school or not. We are human. We make mistakes. But your lowest moment might also be the one where you begin to rise, and rise. So double back. Regroup. Brush yourself off, and try again." -Sarah Dessen

"Throw your soul through every open door. Count your blessings to find what you look for. Turn my sorrow into treasured gold. You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow."

Catch the wind, see us spin, sail away, leave today, way up high in the sky. But the wind won't blow, you really shouldn't go, it only goes to show That you will be mine, by takin' our time.

Denial can have multiple layers, and rationalizing is common when you’re trying to absorb something you just don’t want to believe

‎"When one door closes another opens. But often we look so long so regretfully upon the closed door that we fail to see the one that has opened for us."- Helen Keller

“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude to me, it's more important than the past, the education, than circumstances, failure, successes, than what other people think or say or do. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past; we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it."

"There's a difference between interest and commitment. When you're interested in doing something, you do it only when it's convenient. When you're committed to something, you accept no excuses; only results." - Kenneth Blanchard

“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past; we cannot change the way people act. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it."

Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.

"There was a time I thought, that you did everything right. No lies, no wrong. Boy I, must've been outta my mind. So when I think of the time that I almost loved you, you showed your ass and I saw the real you."

"Thank God you blew it. Thank God I dodged the bullet. I'm so over you,  so baby good lookin' out."

Beyonce - Best Thing I Never Had

"I'll keep a part of you with me, and everywhere I am there you'll be..."

Yellow roses grow in heaven, Lord pick a bunch for me. Place them in my grandfather's arms and tell him they're from me. Tell him that I love and miss him. When he turns to smile, place a kiss upon his cheek & hold him for awhile, because remembering him is easy, I do it every day. There's an ache in my heart that will NEVER go away

if you can’t solve it, it isn’t a problem – it’s reality. and sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. but once it hits you in the face you’ll never forget it. it will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.

next time you’re stressed, take a step back, inhale and laugh. remember who you are and why you’re here. you’re never given anything in this world that you can’t handle. be strong, be flexible, love yourself, and love others. always remember, just keep moving forward
3 * L<3vEs me

[03 May 2010|10:22pm]
shinedown- if you only knew
david nail- somethings  you just know Bruno Mars - Grenade
Rihanna - Cry
justin biever- pray david nail- coulds

When you kiss her as if you had planned it. The moment you�re no longer friends. There is a line you both stumble over;  & you can�t go back again.             When you don't feel the need to explain it, your excitement outweighs all your fear.  And you're quick not to take any credit, Fate brought us here.               And it hits you like the perfect surprise. It's a feeling that won't be denied. When nobody questions if it's the right way to go
Yeah, some things you just know.                
When the new disappears with the seasons. And the first thought of the failure blows in. When you no longer search for an answer; you've reached the end.

Life is not a snapshot. It might take a little time, but you’ll see the bigger picture

 I just want to be a little girl agian, bows & playdresses, & when snack time and playground were the only things that ran through my mind!

im ready to feel now, no longer am i afraid of the fall down, it must be time to move on now, without the fear of how it might end- i guess im ready to love again,so come and find me. ill be waiting up for you; ill be holding out for you tonight

"I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love."♥ 

 you tie the knot, when I'm at the end of my rope. you never stop believing in me when i don't know, who I am, or what I'm supposed to be. I don't give you no good reason, but baby; don't give up on me.

When you cry be sure to dry your eyes, 'Cause better days are sure to come. And when you smile be sure to smile wide, Don't let them know that they have won. And when you walk, walk with pride. Don't show the hurt inside, Because the pain will soon be gone. And when you dream, dream big

 Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you

We all get at least one good wish a year. Over the candles on our birthday. Some of us throw in more. On eyelashes, fountains, lucky stars,and every now and then, one of those wishes comes true. So what then? Is it is as good as we'd hoped? Do we bask in the warm glow of our happiness? Or, do we just notice we've got a long list of other wishes waiting to be wished?

There’s a mountain in my mind. That I know someday I’m gonna climb.So don’t tell me, don’t tell me not to try,

"look, i guarantee there'll be tough times. i guarantee that at some point, one or both of us is gonna want to get out of this thing. but i also guarantee that if i don't ask you to be mine, i'll regret it for the rest of my life, because i know, in my heart, you're the only one for me..."

“Sometimes you really can’t listen to what anybody else says.  You just got to listen inside.”

"Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad So will u bring a better future than I had in the past Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did I don't wanna fall back on my face again"

"if it's gonna happen, then it's gonna happen; that's just the way that it is - oh love comes along and it don't take long till it slips through my fingertips"

 They say the beat of a butterflies wings, can set off a storm a world away. What if they're right and the smallest of things, can power the strongest hurricane. What if it all begins inside. We hold the key that turns the tide.  Just a pebble in the water, can set the sea in motion. A simple act of kindness.  Can stir the widest ocean. If we show a little love. heaven knows what we could change.

The single choice to take a stand, And reach out your hand to someone in need. You never know what can grow, from just one seed. So come with me and seize the day; this world may never be the same.

“As we grow older, it becomes difficult to just believe. It's not that we don't want to, but too much has happened that we just can't.”

id love to say i can hold myself together, but i can't help but come unglued every time i see you

“You have to forgive to forget, and forget, to feel again.”

Is Believe me I did everything I could & somehow I never could forget you.

I don’t think you will ever comprehend the hold you still have on me

 I sit and laugh with friends at what we’ve all been through but still I catch my breath when someone mentions your name.

I tried to move on. I really did. I tried to tell myself that you don’t want me an I don’t need you anymore. But it’s hard to let go of the only person who makes you really happy, makes you glow. I just can’t let go of that.

Just because I finally got over you doesn’t mean there aren’t days when it all comes rushing back.

There’s someone in her past that she hasn’t gotten over yet. Each day is like the last & she misses what she can’t forget. It’s just an emty space where something used to be. Now she guards the gate but she’s lost the key, so no one enters an no one leaves.

To succeed in life, you need three things: a wishbone, a backbone and a funnybone.

My first love broke my heart for the the first time.

"Change; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But here's the truth...the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, change is good. sometimes, change is...everything." Greys Anatomy

"If there's still a chance, Then take my hand and we'll steal away off into the night 'till we make things right; The suns gonna rise on a better day "

Don’t fear it now; we're going all the way Where the sun is shining on a brand new day
It's a long way down, and it's a leap of faith - But I’m never giving up, 'cause I know we got a once in a lifetime love

Half the time the world is ending. Truth is I am done pretending. I never thought that I had anymore to give
Pushing me so far, Here I am without you.  Drink to all that we have lost. Mistakes we have made, Everything will change. But love remains

"I feel like lettin' go of everything that stands between us, and the love we used to know, I wanna touch you like a cleansing rain and let it wash all the hurt away; so come a little closer baby"

I know they say if you love somebody, You should set them free. But it sure is hard to do. I know they say if you don't come back again. Then it's meant to be, so they say. Those words don't pull me through. Cause I'm still in love with you. I spend each day here waiting for a miracle. But it's just you and me goin' through the mill climbin' up a hill

I'm not drowning in my yesterdays

But it tears me up inside, Just to think we could still try. How long must we keep running on a carousel
Goin' round and round and never getting anywhere, On a wing and prayer

you make me emotionally numb

Faith is the belief in something more than what you know, That's what the Good Book says, You gotta play the cards you got Who knows what fate is holding, At times you gotta go without knowing where you're going

Maybe I know somewhere, deep in my soul that love never lasts. And we've got to find other ways to make it alone. Keep a straight face. And I've always lived like this keeping a comfortable distance. And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness.

I'm not the kind of girl that keeps making the same mistakes 

it´s only when you´re tested that you truly discover who you are. And it´s only when you´re tested that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the HEARTACHE and fear of what life has.

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.

"the human life is made up of choices. yes or no. in or out. up or down. and then there are the choices that matter. love or hate. to be a hero or to be a coward. to fight or to give in. to live. or die. live or die. that's the important choice. and it's not always in our hands..."

You go through stroms in life, you don’t know how long that strom will be

I remember when we first met... now look at us.

Ever since I was a little girl you couldn't dare tell me a thing. I was as stubborn as they come. I was such a drama queen. Thought I was right and I could do no wrong. Some could've beens a few dead ends. Some bumps along the way. Some never should've been boyfriends. That ended in heartache, But I still try to see the brighter side. What goes up, don't always come back down. What goes around, don't always come around. I've been down on my knees just a' beggin' the Lord. The Devils been knocking at my door
I've been in the dark but I've always found the light. Oh, I've been up and down this road before
I keep on coming back for more. And I still haven't figured a dang
thing out about life. I've lived and learned and I've been burned. But it's all apart of me. I've got bars around my heart, but I still believe, There's someone out there with the key. But I still dream and I won't give up the fight, And who knows if I'll ever get it right.

keep trying to fight it, am i lost or misguided. seems like everything lately is making me mad. is it you that i'm missing or just someone to listen theres more questions than answers and nobody's asked. i want my heart to unwind. so i sit here with your picture, a cigarette and a tea glass of wine. and then i'll see what you mean to me cus' i can't decide between you and your memory

-"Sometimes you'll find that the saddest songs bring you the most comfort. And the memories that make you cry are the happiest ones you'll ever have" ♥

"When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through."

Keep your chin up, someday there will be happiness again. - Robin Hood

A dream is a wish your heart makes when you're fast asleep. In dreams you will lose your heartaches. Whatever you wish for, you keep. Have faith in your dreams, and someday, your rainbow will come smiling through. No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dreams that you wish will come true. - Cinderella

"Is do you realize, that I still breathe. I still fight with the memories. Does it cross your mind that I may hurt. The scars still remain, I was cut by your words. No matter where I go, no matter what I do, to you I'm nothing more then the man on the moon"

Hero: someone we admire. Someone we look up to. Someone who gives us hope. Not a myth, or an icon, or a legend- someone solid, genuine and real. An ordinary person who does extraordinary things. A hero picks us up when we are down. Believes in us before we believe in ourselves. Inspires us to expand and embrace what's possible.

advice from a nurse: wounds will not heal if you urgently put band aid on it. sometimes you just have to let it bleed, give it some space for healing. and when you think your wounds are already cleansed, that's the time you can use a band aid for it. remember: the more you cover yourself from pain, the more infected you are.

If you're sick of bad things happening to you, stop putting up with it and demand better. -Grey's Anatomy

Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel, stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel., and sometimes we just have to go with "whatever happens, happens."

I was born to be stubborn, to be a little bit bitchy, to push people, to push myself. I was taught never to take life for granted, to live a little, to love with everything I had, to never give up, to believe in myself, but most of all, to fight for myself.

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Loves is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in others people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes."

"I'll be right here, you take your time. Just let me hold you and we'll both take that leap of faith. It's like I told you, there's no guarantees when you feel this way."

Now you get to watch her leave out the window..guess that's why they call it window pane

You don't get another chance, life is no Nintendo game

‎"Once you realize your past is just a story, it has no power over you."

Dream on it. Let your mind take you to places you would like to go, and then think about it and plan it and celebrate the possibilities. And don't listen to anyone who doesn't know how to dream. Liza Minnelli

Reality is something you rise above.  -Liza Minnelli

‎"Have no fear for giving in, have no fear for giving over. You'd better know that in the end its better to say too much then never say what you need to say again."

 ‎"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left."

‎"When you no longer search for an answer, you've reached the end."

"Progress always involves risks. You can't steal second base and keep your foot on first..."
Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice, while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all its sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding; and that there is always tomorrow  

When you don't look back I guess the feelings start to fade away. - Aerosmith

I believe that everything happens for a reason, but I think it's important to seek out that reason, that's how we learn.-Drew Barrymore

You can't get caught up on something that's not going to happen. You got to hold on to the next best thing - The OC

"the SOONER you realize it's never going to go back to the way it was the sooner you will move on."

I couldnt sleep last night because I know its over between us. I'm not bitter anymore because i know that what we had was real. And if in some distant future we see eachother again in our new lives,
I'll smile at you and remember how we spent a summer beneath the trees, Learning from eachother and growing in love. The Best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us want to reach for more, the kind that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and thats what you've given me. And thats what i hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you.

"Life, he realize, was much like a song. In the beginning there is mystery, in the end there is confirmation, but it's in the middle where all the emotion resides to make the whole thing worthwhile." — Nicholas Sparks (The Last Song)

Let God deal w the things they do..cause hate in your heart will consume you too

‎"In three words, I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." -Robert Frost

you probably wont remember, half of the things i'll never forget..♥

‎"Because thats what people do. they leap and hope to God they can fly, because otherwise you just drop like a rock, wondering the whole way down "Why the hell did i jump?" but here i am, falling, and the only one that makes me feel like i can fly, is you."-HITCH

We could all take a lesson from crayons: some are sharp, some are beautiful, some have weird names, and all are different colors, but they still learn to live in the same box.

"In your life you meet people, some you never think about again, some you wonder what happened to them, there are some that you wonder if they ever think about you and then there are some you wish you never had to think about again… but you do. " - The Wonder Years

"All our young lives we search for someone to love. We choose partners, change partners, we dance to the song of heartbreak and hope, all the while wondering if there's someone, somewhere, searching for us." - The Wonder Years

You just gotta keep praying and maybe a miracle will happen ♥

Lord I give you my heart, I give you my soul, I live for you alone every breath that I take every moment im awake, Lord have your way in me!!!

Memories; they soon delete... hmmmmmmm"

"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

"Stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone ought to be."
Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

"Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it."
Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

"I want God to play in my bloodstream the way sunlight amuses itself on the water."
Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

"This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something. "
Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

"Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts, and you are the slave to your emotions."
Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

"There’s a crack in everyone…that’s how the light of God gets in."
Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

"I think I deserve something beautiful."

"There is a reason they call God a presence - because God is right here, right now. In the present is the only place to find Him, and now is the only time."

"You should never give yourself a chance to fall apart because, when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over again. You must practice staying strong, instead."

‎"So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there" -Bob Marley

If you're feeling frightened about what comes next, don't be. Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places. Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness, don't waste time with regret. Spin wildly into your next action. Enjoy the present, each moment, as it comes; because you'll never get another one quite like it. And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over. Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart... where your hope lives. You'll find your way again.

‎"Never Give Up," never loose sight of the things and people that mean the most to you, tommorows not promised, and the futures not known, live day by day, and never let go til you know you have to

 “Sometimes we just have to hit the reset button. NEVER let your history control your destiny.”- Rev Run

Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it”

Each of us grows through stages in life, sloughing off one after another of them, like a butterfly of its cocoon. The purpose is to come out of each more beautiful than when we went into it. That is the purpose, the price, and the power of the cleansing times of solitude, the reflective times of silence.
~Joan Chittister

"Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.Because He lives, all fear is gone.Because I know, I know, I know He holds the future.And life is worth the living just because He lives."

ABOUT ME So here's the Skinny on me. I'm Michelle, alot of people call me MKC, Missy or Sunshine ッ. I drive a blue Jeep Liberty. I'm Obsessed with YELLOW, SUNFLOWERS & BEING IN THE SUN ☼ . I like fishing an being on the lake. Alot of Random things happen to me. I'm different then alot of people & i think thats a good thing. I always try to keep a big SMILE on my face (: an I laugh ALOT. I like to be the one to cheer up someones day if thier down. I'm starting my life as a Dental assistant, & I love it. I realize you gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience you have. When I want something, I go for it. I don't like change to much. My family is my support system. I believe memories last forever, people can turn out to be the total oppsite then what you expected, & life goes on. I LOVE SPORTS!! I'm in complete control of my life. But "When life gets hard, toughen your faith" ♥
I'll be the sunshine breaking through (:

Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy. 

"It took a while for her to figure out. She could run. But when she did, she was long gone, long gone"

"So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling,because lifes a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."

John is the kind of guy  you love to hate.  He is always in a good mood and always  has something positive to say...  When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, 'If I were any better, I  would be twins!' He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, John was there telling the employee how to look on the  positive side of the situation. Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up and asked him, 'I don't get it!' 'You can't be a positive person all of the time.  How do you do it?' He replied, 'Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today.  You can choose to be in a good mood or....you can choose to be in a bad mood. I choose to be in a good  mood.' Each time something bad happens, I  can choose to be a victim or... I can choose to learn from it.  I choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or....I can point out the positive side of life.  I choose the positive side of life. 'Yeah,right,it's not that easy,' I  protested. 'Yes,it is,' he said.   'Life is all about choices.  When you cut away all the  junk, every situation is a choice.  You choose how you react to situations.  You choose how people affect your mood.  You choose to be in a good mood or  bad mood.  The bottom line:  It's your choice how you live your life.' I reflected on what he said.   Soon hereafter, I left the Tower Industry to start my own  business.  We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it. Several years later, I heard  that he was involved in a serious accident, falling some 60  feet from a communications tower. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, he was released from the hospital with rods placed in his back. I saw him  about six months after the accident. When I asked  him how he was, he replied, 'If I were any better, I'd be twins.  ‘Wanna see my scars?' I declined to see his wounds, but I did ask him what had gone through his mind as the accident took place. 'The first thing  that went through my mind was the well-being of my soon-to-be  born daughter,' he replied.  'Then, as I lay on the ground, I remembered that I had two choices:  I could choose to live or...I could choose to die.  I chose to live.' 'Weren't you scared?  Did you lose consciousness?'  I asked. He continued, '......the paramedics were great!’ They kept telling me I was going to be fine.  But when they wheeled me into the ER and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got  really scared.  In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man'.  I knew I needed to take action. 'What did you do?' I asked. 'Well, there was a big burly nurse shouting questions at me,' said John. 'She asked if I was allergic to anything.’ Yes, I replied.   The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply.  I took a deep breath and yelled,  'Gravity'' Over their laughter, I told them, 'I  am choosing to live.  Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead.' He lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude...I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully. Attitude, after all, is everything. Therefore do not  worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own.   After all, today is the tomorrow you worried about  yesterday.

We all have our own book of life. We're just trying to find someone who can read it and understand it. Or better yet, help us finish writing it.

"Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can."

"We all want to grow up we're desperate to get there, to growl all the oppurtunities we can, to live. We're so busy trying to get out of that mess , we don't think about that its going to be cold out there, really freakin cold, cause growing up sometimes means leaving people behind and by the time we stand on our own two feet we're standing alone." -Greys Anatomy

We say we're good as gone
But then we cross those lines we've drawn
It's like we're taking turns
Throwin' matches at a bridge that will not burn

 i hate the monster you've become .

funny how things turn out, how the things you loved he doesnt remember and at the end of the day you convince yourself that there is still hope...

We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still, the expected's just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives."
- Meredith Grey; Grey's Anatomy

"The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open."

 Even when you feel like everything's going wrong. And everything just keeps getting worse. Eventually it does get better And tomorrow is always a new day. ♥

"Who's to say I can't do everything. Well I can try, & as I roll along I begin to find, Things aren't always just what they seem." Jack Johnson

In this weird twisted way, I know you miss me loving you, not because I want to believe it’s true, but because you’ll never find a girl that could put up with you like I did; you’ll never find a girl who will care as much as I did, because no one will waste all their love on you, like I did. Prove me wrong."

‎"And he said in the sight of Israel, Sun, stand thou still upon Gibeon; and thou, Moon, in the valley of Ajalon. And the sun stood still, and the moon stayed, until the people had avenged themselves upon their enemies. So the sun stood still in the midst of heaven, and hasted not to go down about a whole day." Joshua 1...0:12-13

‎"God made this old world round, And maybe it's that way, So that paths that we go down, Yeah will cross again someday, And someday I'll... See you when I see you, Another place some other time, If I ever get down your way, If you're ever up around mine-just stop by, We'll laugh about the old days, And catch up on the news, Yeah I'll see you when I see you"- Jason Aldean     See you when I see you

It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready, I'm ready to love again

"I'm dying to know is it killing you like its killing me. How did we end this way? It's looking like a contest of who can care less. I liked it better when you were on my side. But the battle is in your hands now."
"Take a look at yourself. Is it the person you wanna be? Is someone telling you that you can't or wont be who you want? Cuz you can. Believe that Love is out there. Believe that Dreams come true everyday. Cuz they do. Sometimes happiness doesnt come from fame, money or power. It comes from Friends and Family and the Power of knowing you will have a good life. Believe that Dreams come true everyday. Cuz they Do." I bet you never had a clue But I'd do anything to be with you I'd leave this place in a heartbeat I'd move away from my sweet home Just to be your faithful tag-along ...I'd follow you forever But if you're better left alone I'll do my best to understand. The roads have diverged now and some of us are taking seperate paths neither one is wrong... just different, but rest assured they'll never cross again. Help someone who doesn't deserve it
L<3vEs me

[02 Sep 2009|05:25pm]
says trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if its broke but you can still see the crack in that motherfuckers reflection.

Every text i get i wish it was you, If only you knew.

the more i think the more i miss

 Is People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within..

is only happy in the sun.

just smile like she would want us to. to stay strong for ourselfs an eachother. one day my tears will turn into smiles, remembering our amazing memories we got to share together

Some people are settling down, some are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less. Than butterflies..."

Write your plans in pencil and let God have the eraser.

I don’t need a ring on my finger, I kinda like bein single. Commitment don’t fit me. It bit me one time And I still don’t know

sometimes you just have to stop caring, you have to turn off all emotion & feeling to protect yourself from getting hurt..

people are so pathetic, it amazes me.

"Our story has three parts: a beginning, a middle, and an end. And although this is the way all stories unfold, I still can't believe that ours didn't go on forever" -Dear John.

Why did they have to go? So young I just don't know why, things happen half the time Without reason without rhyme. Funny, sweet & you. Son, Daughter & Bestfriend. It Makes no sense to me. I just have to believe they flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels. By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees. And they walks with Jesus... and thier loved ones waiting. And I know they are smiling saying, Don't worry 'bout me"

honey, i'm no fool

When you desire something that is so important to you - something that you cherish. You begin to become a better person in order to attain that prize. Everyone has a goal. I'm trying to create my own future. Are you?

Know I should stay away from it cause its no good for me. I try and try but my obsession, won't let me leave

I finally understood what true love ment.. Love ment you can care for another persons happiness more then you care for your own.. No matter how painful the chocies you face must be ..... Dear John.

"Don't Ever Give up If You Still Want to try, Don't Ever Wipe Your Tears If You Still Want to cry. Don't Ever Settle for an Answer If You Still Want to know. Don't Ever Say You Don't Love Him If You Can't Let Him Go."

who says i cant be free from all of the things that i used to be

.."down the road the sun is shinning, in every cloud there's a silver lining just keep holding on & every heartache makes you stronger, but it won't be much longer, you'll find love, you'll find peace & the you you're meant to be. I know right now that's not the way you feel, but one day you will."

I can’t believe how you looked at me, with your beautiful Johnnie Walker eyes. You left me speechless :)

You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter." - Nicholas Sparks ♥

"What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the... way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again."

At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say cause there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.

See, somedays you will love me. Then you don't, then you do, then you won't. Then you're here, then you're gone. -j.lo

Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts don't complicate your mind. Flee from hate mischief an jealousy. Don't bury your thoughts put your vision to reality. Wake up & Live (:

 understands feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you. And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends… You still go to bed every night goin...g over every detail, and wonder what you did wrong, or how you could have misunderstood.

made mistakes in my life. I've let people take advantage of me; and I accepted way less than I deserve. But I've learned from my poor choices & even though there are some things that I can NEVER get back and people who will NEVER be sorry, I'll know better next time and I won't settle for anything less than I deserve.

Last night i was thinking of you, a tear rolled down my face, i asked the tear "where are you going" the tear replied "there's someone so important in your eyes, there is no room for me"

"You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months, over-analyzing a situation, trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've/would've happened.... or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move on" -Tupac

Make me a channel of Your peace, where there is hatred let me bring LOVE, where there is despair let me bring hope; where there is darkness, only light and where theres sadness ever JOY!!

Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face, The kind you'd find on someone that could save..

Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

life isn't always easy, it's full of tough decisions and heartache, and things don't always work out the way we hoped. life just doesn't come with guarantees. and while it's true that sometimes, by avoiding taking a chance on people, we can avoid some heartache, we might also miss out on the best times of our life. don't be afraid to love.
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right and forget about the ones who don't. Believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance take it, if it changes your life then let it. Nobody said it would be easy, they just promised that it would be worth it.

Be calm and strong and patient. Meet failure and disappointment with courage. Rise superior to the trials of life, and never give in to hopelessness or despair. In danger, in adversity, cling to your principles and ideals.  

it's not the years in your life that count. it's the life in your years.

Time casts a spell on you, but you wont forget me. I know I could have loved you, but you would not let me 

understands feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you. And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends… You still go to bed every night going over every detail, and wonder what you did wrong, or how you could have misunderstood.

theres this saying that "time heals everything" but yet i wait, an it still hasn't happened yet..

I’m just a girl, you’re just a boy. This is my heart, it’s not a toy. So what’s with you playing with my mind. We used to be cool. Now it’s become, something like a job
Like it or not, maybe things were changing right before our eyes

"It's possible to go on, no matter how impossible it seems, and that in time, the grief . . . lessens. It may not go away completely, but after a while it's not so overwhelming." — Dear John

so i realize its not gonna be easy, and im going to have to work it this everyday to make this better. but i want too, bc i want my life to be completely and utterly about me. who i choose to share it with thats my decision. i have standards and goals. my guy situation, trust isnt an easy thing to get back, but im willing to take the time to build us back up. the start of my new life begins now - candice brown

There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up. -One Tree Hill

I tried to be a picture perfect girl, But you were in your own fantasy world
Tryna control me like some kind of Barbie, but that just ain’t me; cause I ain’t a doll, this aint a dollhouse. You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this

"Some people are settling down, some are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less. Than butterflies..."

 i don't need you with me :)

Live in the moment.. then move on.

I need love, to ease my mind. I need to find, find someone to call mine. But like mama said "You cant hurry love. You just have to wait. She said love dont come easy
Its a game of give and take. You got to trust, give it time. No matter how long it takes. But how many heartaches. Must I stand before I find a love. To let me live again. Right now the only thing, That keeps me hangin on is my strength

I gave up on us so long ago, But you’ll never know. Don’t pretend like you know me so well

'The past can hurt, but the way I see it is you can either run from it or learn from it.'-The Lion King

someday i'm gonna run across your mind but don't worry i'll be fine, i'm gonna be alright. while you're sleeping with your pride, wishing i could hold you tight.. i'll be over you and on with my life!!

Babe, pick a night; To come out and play. If it's alright? What do you say?

I’ll never be made of plastic. So glad that my heart’s elastic. No matter what you do
I’ll bounce back offa you..cut me but I’m not bleeding

And I come with imperfections, Epitome of perfection. if you can’t understand, loving the way I am. then you’re no good for me, so glad i kept my receipt

someday i'm gonna run across your mind but don't worry i'll be fine, i'm gonna be alright. while you're sleeping with your pride, wishing i could hold you tight.. i'll be over you and on with my life!!

is not a day goes past that i don't miss your laugh. i try & close my eyes, try to go to sleep & bring you back but i can't bring you back. looking back memories of us. & our silly times. wish time could freeze, but our time is ...up. & i promise ya i'll hold it down till it's my time. And it hurts my soul. i won't see your face. but your truely in a better place. & until we meet again my sun stands still..

nothing was mine anymore. except my heart. and my fears. and my growing knowledge that not every road led home anymore.

we should act more. think less. and stop watching ourselves live.

"Take what you can from your dreams, make them as real as anything"- DMB

Give us grace and strength to forbear and to persevere. Give us courage and gaiety and the quiet mind, spare to us our friends, soften to us our enemies. Robert Louis Stevenson

those pretty girls can play their game but theyre damn well gonna know my name.

how can you say you love me , and then watch me walk away. how can you say you win some, you loose some... today i lost. when you know your all i want, today wasn't my day, tonight doesnt look like its going to get any better.

Hope sees the invisible, feels the intangible and achieves the impossible.

People are often unreasonable and self-centered..Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives..Be kind anyway.If you are honest, people may cheat you...Be honest anyway.If you find happiness, people may be jealous.....Be happy anyway.The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow...Do good anyway.Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough..Give your best anyway

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

because you never know what hand you'll be delt with next..

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by
every experience in which you really stop to look
fear in the face. You must do the thing which you
think you cannot do.
-Eleanor Roosevelt

There are no shortcuts to anywhere worth going.

Someone once told me that you have to choose,what you win or lose. You can’t have everything. Don’t you take chances? You might feel the pain. Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free. I can’t stand by the side, And watch this life pass me by.. So unhappy, But safe as could be. So what if it hurts me? So what it I break down? So what if this world just throws me off the edge, My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place. I wanna hear my sound. Don’t care about all the pain in front of me. I just trying to be happy. Holding on tightly Just can’t let go, Just trying to play my role. Slowly disappear.  But all these days, They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces, Different place, Get me out of here.

 "Sometimes you have to be a part from people you love, but that doesn't make you love them any less. Sometimes you love them more." -The Last Song

"Truth only means something when it's hard to admit." —

I have faith that God will show me the answer. But you have to understand that sometimes it takes a while to be able to recognize what God wants you to do. That's how it often is. God's voice is usually nothing more than a whisper, and you have to listen very carefully to hear it. But other times, in those rarest of moments, the answer is obvious and rings as loud as a church bell."


Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now? Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go? Remember, cause that's all you can do. We'll never make another memory.

as long as we have courage the day is beautiful

Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears.

Who says I can't be free from all of the things that I used to be? Re-write my history. Who says I can't be free?


feels that you should know, please believe me. I've picked up the phone a thousand times.. And tried to dial your number. But it's been so long, it's never easy. It's like trying to spin the world the other way, Oh What can I say?

Change; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But here's the truth...the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes change is good. Oh sometimes change is...everything. - Greys Anatomy

and theres no such thing as what might have been, thats a waste of time, drive you outta your mind

as a person, i was pretty lost. but in the past 4 years, i've been forced to grow up. i stopped letting boys define me and i started to believe in myself, and in my potential. and somewhere along the way, that lost little girl finally grew up - One Tree Hill

we have to make our lives extraordinary because we never know when it'll end

Heaven help the fool who did her wrong, its to late, to bad, shes to far gone..

 Jesus said "I never said it would be easy. I did say that I would be there with you every step of the way"

I keep my feelings under lock & key

"Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn."

Hearts will never be practical, until they are made unbreakable

"Some of the best things in life are total mistakes."

You know what the scariest thing is? To not know your place in this world. To not know why you are here. It is awful. Now that we know who you are , I know who i am. I'm not a mistake. You know, in a comic book the arch villian is the opposite of the hero.

You dream and you wish with all your little heart but remember, that little star can only take you part of the way , you got to work hard and you set your mind too . Just remember never lose sight of what is really important.

Sometimes you got to learn to love what's good for you.

Courage is tricky if you always do what others tell you to do. any fool can have courage but honour , that is the real reason you do something or you don't.You should hope for courage and have honour.-TBS

I live this life everyday, I make my share of mistakes, And every lesson I've learned, I've learned the hard way.

 "You and me, it might have been awhile ago, and we were just a couple of kids. But we really did love each other, didn't we?" -The Notebook

There’s a point in your life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. But it’s not giving up. It’s realizing that you don’t need certain people, the bullshit, and the drama they bring

you never stop loving somone, you just learn to live without them

-"Never cry over someone who wouldn't cry over you" -LC

I need to know that it's possible that two people can stay happy together forever.

"There was something I was meant to do; somewhere I was meant to be."

You're not supposed to look back, you're supposed to keep going.

Remember to keep your eyes on the stars an your feet on the ground

we have to make our lives extraordinary because we never know when it'll end

 i don't wana have to wish for you. i just want you..

music is what keeps us from falling apart

things really did used to be so simple

**18 Days - Saving Abel
**Lady Antebellum - Love Don't Live Here
**my best days are ahead of me - danny gokey
**i Was Here - Lady Antebellum
**American Honey - Lady Antebellumee
**we werent crazy - josh gracin
miley cyrus - when i look at you
8 second ride - jake owen
she's country jason aldean
**im already there - lonestar
**Dierks Bentley, How Am I Doin'
Luke Bryan- Do I
**Dierks Bentley - Wish It Would Break
**Eric Church, My Hearts Got A Memory
**I Never Told You - Colbie Caillat
**Josh Wilson - Before The Morning
**Jack Ingram, Barbie Doll Lyrics
crazy town - jason aldean
**Dream Big by Ryan Shupe & The Rubberband
**Dierks Bentley- My last name
**Make a wave demi lovato
Joe  Nichols- if nobody believed in you

Miranda Lambert : I Can't Be Bothered

**Ain't Gonna Stop by James Otto

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more quotes. [05 Feb 2009|02:51pm]
Wild At Heart - Gloriana
Agnes Carlsson - Release Me

"trying to fit the pieces together, perfection is my enemy"

determined to get over this

    I Like this quote I dislike this quoteHappiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around!!

Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions

I'm the kind of girl who screams cuss words at the tv during a game, eat a hamburger instead of a salad, much rather be wearing sweat pants & sweat shirts, not afraid to hit & make it hurt, & who doesn't feel the need to look good ever day.

We live, we love, we forgive and never give up Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above And today we remember to live and to love

"Don't leave me in all this pain, Don't leave me out in the rain, Come back and bring back my smile, Come and take these tears away"

above all else, guard your heart for it effects everything you do

Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever.

Life's a game but it's not fair I break the rules so I don't care So I keep doin' my own thing Walkin' tall against the rain Victory's within the mile Almost there, don't give up now

When theres something you really want, fight for it, don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems, and when you've lost hope, ask yourself if you're gonna wish you just gave it one more shot, because the best things in life don't come free.

Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness. Play with abandon. Laugh. Choose with no regret. Appreciate your friends. Continue to learn. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is.

We look at each other wondering what the other is thinking but we never say a thing.

What I want is what I've not got, and what I need is all around me.

There are bad times, but thats okay, just look for the love in it, don't burn the day away.

the saddest lies are the ones we tell ourselves..

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you. And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends… You still go to bed every night going over every detail, and wonder what you did wrong, or how you could have misunderstood.

sometimes, you just feel everything and nothing at once. sometimes, you find yourself smiling, while missing someone at the same time. you can absolutley love someone, and all the while be trying to hate them. life comes without guarentees, except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, & falling in love will change your life.

"To me, 'Fearless' is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, fearlessis living in spite of those things that scare you to death. Fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. Fearless is walking into your freshman year of high school at fifteen. Fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again... even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's fearless to have faith that someday things will change. Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's fearless to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doin, I think it's fearless to stop believing them. It's fearless to say, "You're NOT sorry", and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. Letting go is fearless. Then, moving on and being alright... That's fearless too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That's why I write these songs. Because I think love is fearless."
" -Taylor Swift

In my darkest state of mind. I am riddled with despair. When i try an close my eyes, your voice is all i hear. I will think of you tonight - I will hold back all my tears. I've waited all these years. Please don't go away you're making a mistake. you and i were meant to be. you opened up my eyes and made me realise now it's changing everything.Its crazy how i feel this way. I can't explain
I see your shadow all the time, see your face inside my mirror. Like a sunset in the sky you
distract me from my fears i keep. Holding it inside and i wish that, You were near it's better when your here. All the things you said and all the games we played. Will come back to you see the look in your eyes

I got a mind full of heartaches and hand me downs I got a freight train screaming inside my head

"You are so young, so much before all beginning, and I would like to beg you...to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart...Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them...live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer." -Rilke

was head over heels; moving kinda slow, i'm not making any deals. i wasn't looking, you were in my way. see its hard to explain i wasn't looking for hope, if you touch me again i know were toe to toe. in my heart on my tounge, it will be fine when morning comes, all night your the one to leave, but not this time.. -s.o.s

well if its all gone. then it's all gone. you were just fine; i was holding on. Not that it was right, not that i'm wrong. but i was holding on tight. not that it was right, not for long. we start from the first ive seen we go from better to worse; but not me. we all alone, hoping for better days. you can wake here & i can stay. i know it's harder then it might seem. slow down, i need to find out.. [SOS]

"but wasn't that always the way? it's never something huge that changes everything, but instead the tiniest of details, irrevocably tweaking the balance of the universe while you're busy focusing on the big picture."

"if i make a fool of myself who cares? i'm not frightened by anyones perception of me"

lord, my protector, who always protects me, my loved ones and my friends. help me! give guidance to those who assist me with solutions to my life's problems & give me confort to my soul. reveal to me what i must do tomorrow, and give me strenght an courage to my afflicted spirit. make my problems disappear & restore my faith. AMEN.

"And you will seek me and find me when you search for me with all your heart"
-Jeremiah 29:13

"only time will determine when and how you're going to move on. sure, it might not be right away like you want it to be, but eventually one day you'll wake up and realize that somewhere along the way, that piercing feeling you've always felt inside your chest faded and went away while you were too busy living your life to notice."

you have to swim outside your comfort zone to catch the wave thats going to change your life

"let me catch your fall, let me lend a hand. Those lonely eyes have seen it all but love's too blind to understand. Cause you don't know what you have, Til your everything is gone. You need someone to show you how to live again
I wanna be there when you're feeling high - I wanna be there when you wanna die
I'm gonna light your fire, gonne feel your flame. I wanna be there when you go insane
I wanna be there when you're feeling' down. And I'll be there when your head is spinnin' round.I'm Gonna be your friend, i'll be there til the end. You wouldn't know that I was there. Cause I have been there all the time. And if I had my way I'd hold you in my arms, And leave this madness all behind. Cause you got so much to give
But you throw it all away And all you got to show for who you are is pain. And I've got so much to give. I wanna be there in the pouring rain. II wanna be there when I'm outta town. I wanna be there when your nights are long. And when you're feeling like you don't belong. When your whole damn world is crashing down.. I'll be there till the end"

Questions are a burden to others, answers a prison for oneself.

The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core of strength within you that survives all hurt. -Max Lerner

" I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living. It's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope."

"I know times are changing. What your going through but, they'll be watching over you.  & When times are tough and your backs against the wall. we'll be there to catch you when you fall." -Mike Cole

If we walk away now, there's no turning around.Gotta say what I mean, While you're here with me. I'm not sure I'll find words. To cover the hurt. That I see in your eyes, but I gotta try. I know rocks turn to sand. And hearts can change hands. And you're not to blame. When the sky fills with rain but if we stay or walk way. Can you search down inside. Let go of your pride. If I forget trying to win & nd just let you in. I didn't travel this far,To watch it all fall apart.  So give me your hand and take a chance. Riding with me as close as before. Whatever happens, I won't ask for more. Here in my heart from now 'til the end. Flame out or fly, we have to try again.
-Alexz Johnson

"If tears could build a stairwell and memories were a lane, I would walk right up to Heaven and bring you home again. No farewell words were spoken no time to say good-bye You were gone before I knew it, and only God knows why. My heart still aches in sadness, and secret tears still flow, What it means to lose you, no one will ever know."

people change. its disgusting.

i may be strong but i want you back again; you'll be my angel ♥ Dave Matthews Band.

the only ray of sun you can touch without the fear of burning <3

Never part without loving words to think of during your absence. It may be that you will not meet again in this life.

[[ Don't repeat chapters, the story never changes. ]]
Favorite Quotations:
"I don't wanna lose your face
And i don't wanna wake one day
And not remember what time erased
And i don't wanna turn around
Cause i'm not scared
Of what love gave me and took away"
- Taylor Swift

"A friend is always good to have, but a lover's
kiss is better than angels raining down on me."- DMB

"If you don't believe in yourself, nobody else will."
- Simon Cowell

"Until you face all the mistakes you've made, you're
never going to change." - One Tree Hill

There are moments in our lives
when we find ourselves at a crossroad,
afraid, confused, without a road map.
The choices we make in those moments
can define the rest of our days.
Of course when faced with the unknown,
most of us prefer to turn around and go back.

I've never dropped anyone i believed in.
-Marilyn Monroe

"Don't get mad, don't get even, just find some humor in the situation, pop open a bottle of wine and move on."
- Ashley Earnhart

look at me dreaming of you. all i could hope is to have you. to have you walking with me. laughing so in love. almost drunkenly - i did imbibe of this fantasy of you & me. was i a fool to think? the way you looked at me. i swear you did. but you looked away too quick. i've grown tired of love. you are the trouble with me. i watch you walk right by. i smile, you do not notice me. all you do is toss me pennies. you make a mess of me here. i dance a thousand steps for you. if you say yes to me;i'll be whatever gets you through.

 "Our lives are not determind by what happens to us, but how we react to what happens; not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst.. a spark that creats extraordinary results."

I'm in trouble because I'm normal and slightly arrogant. A lot of people don't like themselves and I happen to be totally in love with myself. -Mike Tyson

see you and me, have a better time than most can dream. & if nothing can be done, we'll make the best of whats around. ♥

She feels like kicking out all the windows and setting fire to this life. <3DMB

just when you've had enough, life gives you more; & just when you think it's rained enough, it starts to pour.

Excuse me please... one more drink can you make it strong cuz i dont need to think.......-

Dark clouds may hang on me sometimes, but I'll work it out.”-DMB

 i think we dream so we don't have to be
apart for so long. If we're in each others
dreams, we can be together all the time

“See you and me have a better time than most can dream of, better than the best, so we can pull on through, whatever tears at us, whatever holds us down, and if nothing can be done, we'll make the best of what's around.” ~DMB.

they say when you lose a loved one that with time it gets easier to move on but i have yet to reach that point.

Jesse Mc Cartney ft. Ludacris - How Do You Sleep

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep
How do you sleep

Tried my best at movin' on
Have yet to find a girl like you
See things now I didn't before
Now wishin' I had more time with you

How do you stay awake
Knowin' all I do is think of you
All the things we fought about
Then never will happen again
If I could just see you

If I had my way come and getcha girl
In your favourite car with the missing top
Remember 'round my way where we used to park
And did all those things to steal your heart

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep
It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep
How do you sleep

Baby all that I hear from my friends
Again again and again compliments 'bout you
They say we saw your girl at the game
And damn we gotta say a big mistake by you

Not only did your body bang
But I miss the conversation too
Tell me that you're gettin' no sleep
Can't think can't eat till I come see you

If I had my way come and getcha girl
In your favourite car with the missing top
Remember 'round my way where we used to park
And did all those things to steal your heart

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep
How do you sleep

Oh-uh oh-uh oh-uh oh
Oh-uh oh-uh oh-uh oh

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep
It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep
How do you sleep

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facebook quotes [25 Aug 2008|11:24pm]
if its all gone. then it's all gone. you were just fine; i was holding on. Not that it was right, not that i'm wrong. but i was holding on tight. not that was right not for long. we start from the first ive seen we go from better to worse; but not me. we all alone, hoping for better days. you can wait here & i can stay. i know it's harder then it might seem. slow down i need to find out. if a heart breaks then a heart breaks.  i was holding on tight not with these mistakes most of them were time much of which i waste. i know know it might be harder then it seems.  i know its harder then it might seem. slow down, i got to figure out where we go now. -SOS

My best friend gave me the best advice; He said each days a gift and not a given right. Leave no stone unturned, Leave your fears behind. And try to take the path less traveled by that first step you take is the longest stride. Going against the grain should be a way of life. What's worth the price is always worth the fight. Every second counts cause there's no second try. So live it like you're never living twice. Don't take the free ride in your whole life. If today was your last day
If tomorrow was too late. Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past; Donate every dime you have and would you call old friends you never see. Reminisce old memories. Would you forgive your enemies? And would you find that one your dreaming of? Swear up and down to god above that you'll finally fall in love
If today was your last day.

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark
On ending a broken heart
You know it's never too late
To shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
Cause you can't rewind
A moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
Cause the hands of time
Are never on your side

when it comes down to it, i let them think what they
want. if they care enough to bother with what i do,
then [ i'm already better than them anyways ]
-mariLyn monroe

I thought i lost you - Miley Cyrus
Billy Ray Cyrus-  Ready Set Don't Go

"When someone breaks your heart it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that person will love you back. But don't turn your back on love because when you find the right person, the joy that one person brings will make up for all the past hurts put together. Times ten."- RN

“ Live for the moment, laugh often - be immature - do anything & everything. [If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sLeep Late] and when you wake up, laugh about it with your friends, because your friends are what matter most. When you have your friends…you have everything " ♥ :]

songs ---> lifehouse - Broken

Joe Nichols - If Nobody Believed In You

"My heart thump not from being nervous. Sometimes I'm thinking God made me special here on purpose. So all the while 'til I'm gone make my words important so if I slip away, if I die today the last thing you remember won't be about some apple bottom jeans with the boots with the fur. how I dream of being free since my birth
Cursed but the demons I confronted would disperse. Have you ever heard of some shit so real. Beyond from the heart, from the soul you can feel. And if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take But please don't cry, just know that I have made these songs for you. And if I die before I wake I pray the lord my soul to take'Cuz I'm ready for a funeral. My mind runs I can never catch it even if I got a head start. God please tell me I am feeling so alone way. I don't need to worry 'cuz I know the world'll feel this. Blessing in disguise but I am not hiding who I am open your eyes. Play it back from the top if you recognize real. And if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take. But please don't cry, just know that I have made these songs for you. And if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take." Kid Cudi [The Prayer]

' i trust people i know i shouldnt, and if it turns out right 
it makes me feel a little bit better about it. i try to trust
everyone, and i know you can't but it's nice to know
some deserve it '

" Lifes to short to try to be
anyone but yourself "

"we are all just flying around
this world in a small plane and
there is no room for extra baggage"

"pick a day & enjoy it. the past, has helped
me appreciate the present and I don't want
to spoil any of it by fretting about the future"

"There's heroes & Legends. Heros get
remembered but Legends never die,
follow your heart & you'll never go wrong"
-Babe Ruth [SandL0t]

" hold on to what you try to be, your individuality
when the world is on your shoulders; just smiLe
&& Let it go. don ' t you know it ' s true what they
say, that Life isn ' t easy but our time is coming
around so don ' t stop trying. try not to worry about
a thing, enjoy the good times Life can bring. keep it all inside you, got to Let the feelings show. imagination is the key, cause you are your own destiny. you never should be LoneLy when time is on your side. So don ' t stop never give up, Hold your head high an reach the top "

"A life made of memories gone so young."
March 19, 1990- Nov 4, 2007
Alex Kahle <33 - i ' ll never give up
i Love you, & miss you. watch over us aLex.
you were a huge impact on my Life, i'll never forget
you, EVER. - i can't wait to see you again,
find me in heaven. " breathe in, breathe out, be
a banana " - aLex kahLe <33

"When I'm alone or Lonely; i get to explore
who i really am and that's invaluable"
- jessica simps0n

"I believe in love, & first Love the feelings
never go away. I believe the past made
you who you are today. I also believe in
arguing & jamming out by yourself in the car.
I beLieve in having someone tell you your beautiful, dancing in the rain & miracles. I believe in smiling
till your cheeks hurt & laughing until you cry.
I believe in second chances, even if you've completely screwed up"
-Jessica ALba

" trying to believe the best in people "

"everything happens for a reas0n
even if there isn't any meaning"

"if i had no more time; no more time left to
be here. would you cherish what we had.
i don't want to forget the present is a gift
& i don't want to take that for granted.
time you may have here with me.
cause lord only knows another day here's
not really guaranteed"
-Alicia Keys 
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[13 Dec 2007|03:10pm]

I'm in trouble because I'm normal and slightly arrogant. A lot of people don't like themselves and I happen to be totally in love with myself.
-Mike Tyson

"It's the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter."

"The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous"

"As we drive along this road called life, occasionally a gal will find herself a little lost. And when that happens, I guess she has to let go of the coulda, shoulda, woulda, buckle up and just keep going." "So many roads. So many detours. So many choices. So many mistakes."

"to choose the path is to choose the destination. but sometimes it seems that the path is under our feet even before we know we're walking" -rpe

" i see you comb your hair an gimme that
grin. its making me spin now. before i melt
like snow, baby i love how you undress now.
baby begin. do your caress, honey my hearts
a mess. i love your brown eyed voice. "

"cuz when you're fifteen, someone tells
you they love you. you're gonna believe them
& when your fifteen feelin' like there's
nothin to figure out. & then you're on your
very first date and he's got a car and
you're momma's waitin up and
you're thinkin
he's the one.
you're dancin around the
room when the night ends, when the night
ends. but in your life you'll do things
greater than datin the boy on the football
but i didn't know it at fifteen. when
all you wanted was to be wanted. wish you
could go back & tell yourself what you know
now. back then i swore i was gonna marry
him someday
. but i realized some bigger
dreams in life.
i've found time can heal most
& you just might find who you're
supposed to be.
i didn't know who i was
supposed to be at fifteen."


little angel with a dirty face. whatever caused
you to fall from grace? with your silver wings &
hals so bright. your place is above in the realm
of the light. did you just go flying to & fro
and get mixed up in this world below? was it
some mischief or earthly sin that got you into
this trouble your in? if you just repent & trust
god's grace he will wipe the grime from your
dirty face. a penitent prayer can make things
right. & your life can be clear & bright. '

Usher - Whats A Man To Do

" she's hot, can't stop, up on stage doing shots.tip the man he'll ring the bell, get her drunk she'll scream like hell. dirty girl, gettin' down, dance with guys from outta town. grab her ass, actin' tough,. mess with her. she'll fuck you up. no one really knows if she's drunk or if she's stoned. she likes to shake her ass. she grinds to the. party's on, love this song, sing along. does it make her wrong to have the time of her life? " 

I should have known that we'd never get anywhere. You can't fall in love when you're falling apart. And you can't make amends if you're only making mistakes. Empty words can't fix a broken heart.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
----- Proverbs 3: 5-6

TayLor Swift 's new songs

02. Fifteen
03. Love Story
04. Forever & Always
05. Hey Stephen
06. White Horse
07. You Belong With Me
08. Breathe
09. You're Not Sorry
10. Tell Me Why
11. That's The Way I Loved You
12. The Best Day
13. Change

life is going to push you around . it's going to beat you up . and it's going to scare you . but then, one day, you realize ... your not just a survivor. you're a warrior .'
we confess our dreams are way too small
god for who you are. You're beyond
expections. We're crying out for a
restoration here. You are the god who
saves. You're beyond Limitations.
Sun stand
Oceans part nothing is too hard. Refuge
for the weak. Strong & mighty. Within us,
the spirit who raised Christ, Victor over death.
You're the God of resurrection. More than
we could ask or imagine, This promise is our.
The hope of our salvation. '
-- gah i miss you al

You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices.
Or you can fight back. Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world.
That's just the way it is. But for the most part, you get what you give.
The rest of your life is being shaped right now. With the dreams you chase.
The choices you make. and the person you decide to be.
The rest of your life is a long time. And the rest of your life starts right now.

Because, it's only when you’re tested that you truly discover who you are.
-one tree hill

"Knowing is better then wondering, walking is better then sleeping, and even the biggest failure...beats the hell out of never trying."
Grey's Anatomy

why give people the satisfaction of letting them
get the best of you, when you can clearly see;
they envy you
. you should feel bad that they
are pathetic enough to want to live their lives
through your dowfall. people are too weak to
follow their own dreams & will find every
possible to try & discourage yours. it's a natural
thing, don't curse it bless it, because these
pathetic mother fuckers encourage my conceit.

- nicole richie

How you climb up the mountain is just as important as how you get down the mountain. And so it is with life, which for many of us become one big gigantic test followed by one big gigantic lesson, in the end, it all comes down to one word. Grace. It's how you accept winning and losing, good luck and bad luck, the darkness and the light.

"sometimes when you're young.. you think nothing can hurt you. its like you're invincible. you're whole life is ahead of you. you have big plans. find your perfect match. the one that completes you. but as you get older, you realize its not always that easy. its not til the end of your life that the plans you made were simply plans. but at the end when your lookin back instead of forward, you wanna believe that you made the most of what life gave you. you wanna believe that you're leaving something behind. you want it all to have mattered."
                             - One Tree Hill

 the lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way? - Proverbs 20:24

' I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes,
cause when you showed me myself, you know, I became someone else.
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need.
I picture you fast asleep, a nightmare comes, you can’t keep awake.
Cause if I find.. if I find my own way, how much will I find?'
Joseph Arthur

People always leave, but sometimes they come back.

The magic of first love is our
ignorance that it can never end.

Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. And as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want.

' i can hardly see what's in front of me
these days and those days too. '

He saw it in my eyes, when he was sayin' goodbye. I didn't think i was gonna be alright.
I'd be goin' through a livin' hell and he wouldn't be there by my side. And he just sat there and watched me cry. He was movin' on and I was barely gettin' by. Look at what he done to me. He gave me back my heart, the broken part. I got the wrong end of the deal. He saw me out last night & I was havin' a good time, I was doing fine. Hopefully it hit him.  that i didn't really need him. I found somebody new, and look who took the time to deal. I told him he left our love in a cloud of dust, & i hope youe thinking maybe you were wrong. But after all the things you done to me - now i'm strong , standin tall, i got it all, got the world at my heels '

"boy, she dont need you and she dont need me, she can do just fine on her own two feet, but she wants a man who wants her to be herself and she'll never change. dont know how to hide her stubborn will or her fightin side but you treat her right and she'll love you like no one else..."
-george strait

Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You
have to know that you're a good person & a good friend. What is meant to be will end up good & what isnt, wont. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you cant be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they dont, you must just move on & realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around & dont lose something real. Always fight until you cant anymore, & then be fought for.

“I'm tough, ambitious, and I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a bitch, okay.”

' We can't help ourselves. We see a line, we want to cross it. Maybe it's the thrill of trading the familiar for the unfamiliar. A sort of personal dare. Only problem is, once you've crossed it's almost impossible to go back. But if you do manage to make it back across that line you find safety in numbers. '

' it's been the longest year without you - i didn't know where to turn. somehow i couldn't forget you. i thought i deserved it but i realise i really didn't. i'm learning to love again. i know it's going to be okay. now i found someone new - & i can live without you. and i'm gonna smile because i deserve to '

' did you check the tires, put gas in the car? don't think you need too much, cause you ain't gonna get that far. did you pack the good times - don't forget a map. just in case if the route you take isn't there to take you back. you can hold any girl that you like. fall in love when it's easy at night. but you'll wake up wondering why she ain't ever something better. when you're lost and run out of road. find what i already know. oh, in the end it's me you're going to miss - but you won't find this '

'hey bitch, you'd better take a look in the mirror - you got a little crazy on your face : ] '

' i've heard that it's possible to grow up, i've just never met anyone who's actually done it. without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. we throw tantrums when things don't go our way. we whisper secrets with our best friend, in the dark. we look for comfort where we can find it. & we hope against all logic, against all experience, like children, we never give up hope. '

The thing is never a time when you'll be more honest, when your convictions are stronger, or when your motives will be more pure than they are right now. Which means you should chase whatever it is that excites you, be confident, and take risks.
--Hilarie Burton as Peyton Sawyer

'you never know where the next miracle will come from. the next smile. the next dream come true.' ♥ One Tree Hill.

" I spent the morning at an old friend's grave, Flowers and Amazing Grace, she was an amazing person. She spent her whole life spinnin' her wheels. Never knowin' how the real thing feels. She never took a chance or took the time to dance And I stood there thinking as I said goodbye. Today is the first day of the rest of my life -'Cause people do it everyday. Promise themselves they're gonna change. I've been there, but I'm changin' from the inside out. That was then and this is now. I'm a new girl, yeah, I'm a brand new girl. And when they carve my stone they'll write these words "Here lies a girl who lived life for all that its worth".

I'm gonna stop lookin' back and start movin' on
Learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart, make my mark
I wanna leave something here

" sometimes things find you when you need them to find you, i believe that. & for me it ' s usually song lyrics"
[one tree hill]

Sometime when you care about someone alot you just know you will make some kind of mistake and you end up losing the person you care the most about but if your lucky you might get a second chance .
You have one chance, one life and what you do with it is up to you.

It's not about what you say, its about what you do. You don't like the person you've become then do something about it, because no one's gonna do it for you

 I wanted everything you are And I wanted you to be mine; something once just for me
It’s funny how things always happen like this, Never ever like you might have guessed
Intuition you never knew exists. Until you find someone that fills you.
Like a bucket of water spilling over cold rain. Love is happy why do I feel pain?

What am I to do because I’m falling for you
But then again I see she loves me to
Am I loser, what should I do?
There’s you and there’s her and there’s others too.

Because sometimes when you love people you want to believe their good. 

"we are aLL just fLying ar0und this w0rLd in a smaLL pLane and there is n0 r00m f0r extra baggage"

"take chances. never give up. teLL the truth, date s0me0ne t0taLLy wr0ng f0r y0u. Say N0. Spend aLL y0ur cash. faLL in L0ve. get t0 kn0w s0me0ne rand0m. be rand0m. take r0ad trips. say [i L0ve y0u] . sing 0ut L0ud & dance crazy. Laugh at a dumb j0ke. cry. get revenge. ap0L0gize. teLL s0me0ne what they mean t0 y0u, even if they say n0thing back. Let s0me0ne kn0w y0u are what they are missing in thier Life"

He's a sucky person. Now the only thing really that there is for me left to do is to forgive and forget. I want to forgive you and I want to forget you

I've had a couple of people betray me. I'm not a person who believes in holding grudges, but if one of the people i loved the most did something really terrible to me, it would be very hard to ever really trust him again. What would stop him from doing something like that again? It's not like that person just changes and suddenly becomes different.”
-Lauren Conrad
Timing lost minutes and moments, I might be lonely, But I'm not afraid
In a second, it all comes right back to me. No, nothing's forgotten now. Yeah, everything's saved

"They say ch0ices in life define y0u, the past 2 years i've made g00d ch0ices & bad ch0ices. But i w0uldn't change any 0f it. N0w i'm starting the new chapters 0f my life<3"

he's just that guy, you know. . . like you always have that one guy. . .like woulda coulda, shoulda. . . .but it never works"

" I just want t0 m0ve 0n with the past, but s0metimes the past d0esn't aLways stay in the past"

" a ph0t0 can say a th0usand things. a ph0t0 can capture the way we were but it can ' t capture that way we are cause y0u 're far away. what it's like t0 kn0w y0u & t0uch y0u. When y0u t0Ld me y0u L0ved me were th0se just w0rds? Y0u can't teLL me y0u d0n't need me && i kn0w that hurts . Cause i ' m L00king at y0ur picture & it ' s aLL i g0t n0w. Maybe 0ne day y0u & me wiLL have 0ne m0re sh0t"

"hes doing stupid stuff to try to make me jelaous, i know he is, but honestly it makes me not want to talk to him"
-Newport Harbor

"aren ' t y0u g0nna say anything? it 's n0t because i d0n ' t care, because i d0 care what y0u think ab0ut me. when y0u d0n ' t say anything, then i d0n' t kn0w what t0 say t0 make us right again. which seems the theme in my Life right n0w. just because either 0f us can't say s0mething d0esn ' t mean we d0n ' t want t0, we can want t0 very much. Y0u can be with a pers0n & be happy with them but n0t L0ve them. & Y0u can L0ve s0meb0dy and n0t want t0 be with them. Y0u d0n ' t need t0 L0ve s0me0ne t0 want them. N0w that ' s frustrating, when y0ur brain teLL ' s y0u what y0u want, & y0u d0n't kn0w h0w the 0ther 0ne feeLs because they w0n ' t say anything, it 's exhausting & weLL it's c0mpLicated but it 's Life"

People are stupid and just want to be loved. That's the only reason anyone does anything.

"There's her0es & Legends. Her0s get remembered but Legends never die, f0LL0w your heart & y0u'LL never g0 wr0ng" -Babe Ruth [SandL0t]

"he 's a sucky pers0n with sucky m0raLs"

We do not get unlimited chances to have the things we want. And this I know ... nothing is worse than missing an opportunity that could've changed your life.

"about me"
i've learned people turn out to be the total opposite of what you expected, memories don't last forever, and life goes on whether you want it to or not. i've made many misteaks in my life, but every wrong decision has lead me to a right one. i'm afraid of changes.
" i learned a ton about myself, and i became really independent & feeL like i grown up al0t"

"we are aLL just fLying ar0und this w0rLd in a smaLL pLane and there is n0 r00m f0r extra baggage"

"you have t0 L0ve y0urseLf bef0re y0u ever L0ve s0me0ne esLe"

"if y0u d0n't beLieve in anything; y0u'LL L0se y0urseLf c0mpleteLy"

 "It's been said that there's one word that will free us from the weight and pain of life. And that word is love. And I believe that. That doesn't mean that it hasn't been hard, or that it won't be. It just means that I've found a stillness and a bravery in myself when I'm with you. You make me brave. And I will love you until the end of time." [ OneTreeHill ] 

"everyday i try just t0 breathe & i want t0 sh0w the wh0Le w0rLd the truth inside 0f me. suddenly time, feeLs Like the wind; it changes everywhere i g0 & i ' m just trying t0 fit in, in this big w0rLd. i 'm stiLL just that  girL who is f0LL0wing her heart in the amazing crazy w0rLd. As my dreams my dreams begin t0 rain i want t0 say L0ve me f0r me & what ' s inside. & i 'm g0nna be p0sitive, n0t run away."

 "Everyday i wake up to another day gone by. Nothing but the open roads and never ending why ' s. Anything can happen, yeah but nothing ever does. I try to change, it ' s kinda strange. Same as it ever was -> but look at us. How do i deal with you? How do i deal with me? When I don' t even know myself or what it is you want from me. How do I know whats real , when i don't even trust myself 0r what i feel is real. Every night in the dark I lie awake in bed thinking about you and us. How am I supposed to dream, with all the static in my head, Torn in all directions baby, pray for some relief and pray for you and me. What can I do but feel the way Im underneath And grit my teeth. why do I have to choose. Everybodys tellin me, what the hell I have to do " 

"What's the point of trying to meet you in the middle,You got your point of view - There's nothing I can do. Can't change your mind; can't leave it all behind. You're living in the past, we talk & talk, it goes on for hours about how i should be. Why is it all me? I don't want to fight, i don't want to waste my time. Oh say what you have to say, I'm happy you got your way, theres nothing to discuss. What's the point of trying to reach a compromise When you're the judge & jury. I can't make you see that I'm not always wrong. Baby this can't last, I'm moving on. "

I believe we write our own stories. And each time we think we know the end - we don't. Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance, and in peace that comes from knowing that you just can't know it all. You know, life's funny that way. Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong.
tell me is this worth it - no body's perfect. so what, so what am i supposed to do & everytime i try to walk away something else reminds me i should stay - i know i should be strong, but it feels so wrong ; moving on. it's so much easier said than done. 

I don't care about your past,
All I wanna know is if there's
a place for me in your future.
-- Sweet Home Alabama*

I want a guy who would watch Disney movies with me until the wee hours of the night. He'd laugh at my lame corny jokes, even if they weren't funny. And every time I looked into his eyes, they'd still leave me breathless.

Nothing that ' s worthwhile is ever easy -- Remember that

There's a difference between love and like
and right.
Never run, if you're not ready to
& never forgive if you're not ready to forget.

Do you ever get the feeling where you
don't want to talk to anyone & you don't 
want to smile & you don't want to fake
being happy, but all at the same time you 
really don't know what's exactly wrong either?

I'm at the point in my life where everything is falling apart,
but coming together at the same time.
It took me a long time to realize this
and I think I'm starting to,
but sometimes what you want isn't always what you get,
but in the end what you get is so much better then what you wanted.


Did you know I kept all your pictures.
Don't have the strength
to part with
them yet. Tried to erase the way your
kisses taste, but some things a girl can
never forget. Don't you know I've tried
and I've tried
to get you out my mind,
but it don't get no better as each day

goes by. And I'm lost & confused, I've
got nothing to lose. Hope to hear from
you soon. PS
-> I'm still not over you.

"i've learned one thing, and that's to quit worrying about stupid things. You have four years to be irresponsible here, relax. Work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember the time you wasted hanging out with your friends. So stay out late. Go out with your friends on a Tuesday when you have a paper due on Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink tiL sunrise. The work never ends, but college does.." - Tom Petty 

"sometimes its black, sometimes its white, sometimes hes wrong,
sometimes im right. sometimes we talk about it or we figure it out
but then he just changed his mind - sometimes hes hot, sometimes im cold
sometimes my head wants to explode. but when i think about it im so in love with him"

" i told myself getting out, that’s what this is all about. sun goes up, sun goes down; you only get one go around - to leave this town. so i let this road carry me, as far as it could carry me. stood on a mountain free, found a place i could breathe in & out. and thought about things i can't live without. i keep coming back time after time. no matter where i'm at, i can't pretent i've found something better then where i've been, cause where i'm from, is who i am. & no matter how far that i run, i keep coming back "

": see the more people change, the more that they stay the same.
so i just stopped everything, thought about all the things - weighing me down. then i threw out old boxes, emptied my pockets of regrets, love letters, & pictures. and all i have now is the truth that i ' ve found. life has it ' s way of turning around and around. so i go back to this town, so peaceful & still. where my memories are at. i keep coming back "

Don't judge me, because you don't know the first thing about me
-one tree hill

Imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true. You know it's the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person. Who's standing next to you?

whats wrong with fairytales? everyone gets a happy ending.
[one tree hill]
People are going to dissapoint you. I get that, I kinda expect that. But, I don't know, what if you wake up one day and realize you're the dissapointment?

the stars are crying out for what we had

don't be afraid to be who you are

" when i needed you  to stand by me, you blew me off, now i don't need you anymore "

" sex is the easy part, it ' s giving your heart away - that ' s scary "
- one tree hill

" some people need to stop making tired excuses. be happy for the day they have. treat everyone with kindness, just love one another "

the past can't be re -written , you get the life your given 

" there's some thing that i regret, some words i wish gone unsaid. some starts that had some bitter endings. been some bad times i've been through, damage i cannot undo, somethings i wish i could do all over again, that i wish i could have one more chance. but it don't make no difference, the past can't be rewritten, you get the life you're given. & every tear that had to fall from my eyes, everyday i wondered how i'd get through the night, every change, life has thrown me, i'm thankful, for every break in my heart, i'm grateful, for every scar, some pages turned,some bridges burned, but there were lessons learned." 

"It's about you, and its always about you. What you need and what you want. You know, it seems that you only want me when you can't have me. You like the chase and that's all, so you can't have it.  & I'm going home.
i think you have to love yourself before you love anyone esle
L<3vEs me

[19 Nov 2007|08:24pm]
"Now, why would you want to break a perfectly good heart & make the very first scar. Maybe I should've seen the sign, should've read the writing on the wall. & realize by the distance in your eyes that I would be the one to fall. No matter what you said I still can't belive, that you would walk away; it doesn't make sense to me. My heart is not unbroken anymore, how do I get it back to the way it was before"

Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, its one day closer to the next time you will

well i'm sorry i'm not who you thought i was, but what's happened is in the past, and all i can do is try to change, if you can't accept that, then you're not who i thought you were

Part of me thought that if I didn't say it outloud, then it wouldn't be true

In order to move forward with our future, we must forgive those who have wronged us in the past and we must ask for forgiveness from those we've wronged. Without this forgiveness innocent people get hurt

How do you know when how much is too much? Too much too soon. Too much information. Too much fun. Too much love. Too much to ask.. Missing someone too much... And when is it all just too much to bear?
No matter what you say about love; I keep coming back for more.
Keep my hand in the fire, Sooner or later I get what I'm asking for.
No matter what you say about life, I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger. Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind.

I can't waste time so give it a moment. I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I've done. Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction. I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do.

Sick of playing all of these games. It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn't deliver. 
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I've gotta be strong and leave you behind

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

Gimme a cup I'll drink till I throw up. Licking my lips 'cause I got the craving. Saturday night and I've been saving, my appetite for alcohol. Give my motherfucking peeps a call. Where can we do this? It really dont matter. Let's get drunk, no let's get plastered. I ain't got shit to do in the morning. Fuck the surgeon general's warning. Let's do shots of tequilla.Tomorrow there's gonna be spots on the rug. Chug that glass of bourbon sour. I'll be puking in about an hour. B-A-C is 12 point 0 dude. Gimme the keys I'm ready to go. Let's get fucked up because alcohol is my only friend.

I don't think of you every day and night. I got things to do, yeah I'm doing alright. So, I can't explain why in times like these. I nearly go insane when you're not here with me. Oh I know it's really over and you're never coming back
And there's no way that I can make it right. Oh it's the jealousy that's hurting me. So why can't I let it be, why can't I just let go? The feeling of someone esle doing what we used to do, feeling what we felt. I just can't stand that feeling

i wanna be the first thing on your mind in
the morning, the one who knows it's you
when you're calling, one to dry your tears
when they're falling.. i wanna know you
like that. i wanna be the one you run to
when things get crazy, the only girl that
you call your baby, one whose always got
your back.. i wanna know you like that

Oh I had alot to say, Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same. 'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you aren't the same anymore, it makes me wanna cry.
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back. I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round. This time I think were both to blame
It's harder to get through the days. We get older and blame turns to shame.
Every single day I think about how we came all this way. The sleepless nights and the tears I've cried
It's never too late to make it right. I guess things just need to take time. Figure out what we both want. Only time will tell.

There's people talking, They talk about me. They know my name; They think they know everything. But they don't know anything about me

Give me a dance floor, Give me a dj. Play me a record, Forget what they say
Cause I need to go. Need to getaway tonight.I put my makeup on a Saturday night
I try to make it happen, Try to make it all right. I know I make mistakes, I'm living life day to day. It's never really easy but it's ok. Theres something going on anywhere I go tonight

The city's restless, It's all around me. People in motion, sick of all the same routines
And they need to go. They need to get away tonight

boy when it comes to you theres nothing I would do, but I gotta make up my mind & get on with my life

i don't know what i'm feeling but i gotta stick to what i believe in

thinking about no one esle but you

everything happens for a reason even if there isn't any meaning.

i don't know where were going from here, but i'm alright with you

"I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you"
-The Notebook

L<3vEs me

[14 Oct 2007|06:26pm]

Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.
-Sex and the City

A good football game can have us all on the edge of our seats. Games are all about the glory, pain and the play by play. And then there are the more solitary games. The games we play all by ourselves. The social games, the mind games. We use them to pass the time to make life more interesting... to distract us from what's really going on. There are those of us who love to play games, any games. And there are those of us who love to play a little too much.

"Reality isn't the way you wish things to be, nor the way they appear to be, but the way they actually are"

"When I'm alone or lonely; i get to explore who i really am and that's invaluable" - jessica simpson

"I was a princess in a fairytale, then reality came crashing in & I learned that isn't always how life works" -Jessica Simpson

The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open, like it or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore.

To me, you are the brightest star under sunlight

  "I belive in love, in arguing & jamming out by yourself in the car. I believe in having someone tell you your beautiful, dancing in the rain & miracles. I belive in smiling till your cheeks hurt & laughing until you cry. I believe in second chances, even if you've completely screwed up" -Jessica Alba

"A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for eachother, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe to late or maybe forever" - dave mathews

"My theory is that if you look confident you can pull off anything - even if you have no clue what you're doing.”
- Jessica Alba

“There's no such thing as a perfect guy. I think it would be strange if somebody was absolutely everything you always wanted, because then there'd be no challenge. Also, you'd feel inferior.” -Jessica Alba 

It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale is slightly different than your dream. The castle, well it may not be a castle. And it's not so important that it's happily ever after - just that it's happy right now. 

Can you tell me how we got in this situation,
I cant seem to get you off my mind,
all these ups and downs,
they trip up our good intentions,
nobody said this was easy ride.
After all were only human,
always fighting what were feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all were only human,
is there any other reason why
we stay instead of leavin after all

Feels like a Friday night
But it's only WEDNESDAY afternoon
Still there's a party goin' on in my livin' room
It's just me and fifth of Beam
Swayin' to the sounds of old George Jones
And it won't be long 'til the whole damn bottle's gone 
And I know it might sound sad
But to tell the truth it ain't half bad
I love my misery
Gonna drown my blues in a sea of whiskey 
I'm drinkin' again
Tryin' hard to hide the pain I'm in
So don't give me any shit, I know just what I'm gettin' in
Sure, it's a sin but I don't really give a damn
I'm drinkin' again
-Corey Smith

I know i don't need you; but for some reason i still want you. After those years we been though theres something left still in my eyes.  We were everything everyone wanted to be. We were something that can't be forgotten. Everything I do theres always a memory of us there. Your the best thing that happened to me & the worst; maybe i just have to sit back live life & see what we turn out to be in the end<3 

scars heal, glory fades
& all were left with are the memories made
pain hurts, but only for a minute
your life is short so go on and live it

   I found out about you
Rumors follow everywhere you go...

you make me hate you

As I lie here tossing in my bed
Lost in my fears remembering what you said
And I try to hide the truth within
The mask of myself shows its face again
Still I lie here time and time again
Will you deny me when we meet again?
As I find truth where I found it times before
As I search for your hope
I'm finding so much more
And I try to be more like you
And I deny myself to prove my heart is true

It seems like every day’s the same
and I’m left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and there’s no color to behold
And I am aware now of how , how everythings gonna fine, now im prepared

He's different, I can feel it.
He's special, I can see it.
He's amazing, I know this.
And all I want is a chance to show him, a chance to make it work.
all the nights she sits awake,
wonder if your doing the same
thinking of her cause she's thinking
of you, wanting to heard the sound
of your voice for one last time.
and just because she comes off strong,
doesn't mean she didn't fall asleep crying.
even though she acts like nothing is wrong,
maybe, just maybe, she's really good at lying.

We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on, guns blazing. De Nile. It's not just a river in Egypt, it's a freakin' ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it 

i make mistakes. that's what i do. i speak without thinking, i act without knowing. i drink so much that i can barely walk. i'm a fantastic lover though, and an amazing friend. God knows i mean well.
 sex and the city

seasons are changing &+ waves
are crashing &+ stars are falling all for us. days grow longer
&+ nights grow shorter. i can show you i`ll be the one. i will
never let you fall:; i`ll stand up with you forever. i`ll be there
for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven.

my heart, be still, i'm havin trouble breathin
wonderin if you feel the same way that i'm feelin
cold sweat, so strange, i can't play it cool. my
heart's out on a limb, and boy you'd be somethin
to lose, you'd be somethin to lose [C0REY SMITH]

You, me, we should get together now
Love may never give another chance
Please don't be afraid to let me in
We may never get this moment back again
- Corey Smith

I wanted everything you are; you to be my man, wanted something just for me & I wanted you

Its funny how things happen like this never ever like you might have guess emptiness you never knew execs until you find someone to fill you.

Love is happy why oat you feel pain; its just the thought of you that makes me want it

I know I should go ahead but should I even care?

Give me only my 5 minutes to get it out of my head; I got to pull it together. The smell of your cologne brings back the time & it plays with my mind, I’m trying to get over it. My whole world keeps on turning because I get so wrapped up in it and I just can’t quit it, it’s twisted how you leave me.. because I know you don’t need me. But I find myself just saying your name. This is just the way that I feel, now that you’re here I start to remember that I want you again; yeah your under my skin. You’re diggin in like a beautiful splinter. I’m trying to act normal like nothing is wrong. I’m trying to move on but I know you no better. Loosen my cool when I see you around. This is just the way I feel.

I know this really isn't you; I Know Your Heart Is Somewhere Else
And I'll Do Anything I Can to Help You Break Out Of This Spell.
I See You Following your Crowd. I Know You're Trying To Fit In but If  your Gonna Find Yourself
You Gotta Start From Deep, Deep Within. & I Am Sending You A Message. Don't ever Think That It's Too Late
When You Care About Someone, there is always room for change; you're allowed to make mistakes
it's a part of every life. I Don't See you any different; the Truth Is Shining In Your Eyes.
You Can Take Your Time And I Know  From My Heart. hold On To What You Believe.  I Will Always Be Your Friend
I Know Who You Are Inside I Am With You Till The End Never Far Behind I am standing in the distance
You can take your time And I will be there waiting 

Eventually you grow up and one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope and faith that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true.

  The truth is painful. Deep down, nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves.
-Greys Anantomy

It's just you think, you think you know someone, know who they are. You shared everything an made wishes on eyelashes with them and we don't know each other, none of us. We're just a bunch of people who are together. There's nothing there. 

There's a big fucking world out there. It's messy, and it's chaotic, and it's never, never ever the thing you'd expect. It is ok to be scared, but you cannot allow your fears to turn you into an asshole, not when it comes to the people that love you, the people that need you. 

jon young - never gonna change
jon young- take time
so small
all american girl
actin as if
when it was me
gimme more
the trill is back
long trip alone
youll think of me
toby miclay 
feelings for you last forever
L<3vEs me

[30 Sep 2007|03:28pm]

Truth is still absolute. Belive that. Even when the truth is hard & cold, and more painful than you've ever imagined & even when truth is more cruel then any lie

how many moments in life could you look back and think " That's when it all changed"

 baby, you make the sun shine down.  you can paint the darkest clouds and turn them into rainbows.  you take your secret smile, the one that turns me on. hey boy, you've been what i've waited for.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you can learn to let go. things go wrong so that you apprieciate them when they're right. you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust
no one but yourself. and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together" -Marilyn Monroe

i think that it's time to tell this uphill fight goodbye. have you ever had to love someone that just don't feel the same, trying to make somebody care for you the way i do is like trying to catch the rain & if love is really forever i'm a winner at a losing game <3

If you could go back & change just one thing about your life, would you? & if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that changed ultimattily break your heart? or break the heart of another? Would you choose a entirely different path? or would you change just one thing? just one moment. one moment that you always wanted back..

guys are sketchy

don't you hate that? like the guys you know you can't be with & trying to get over, and out of your life. and finally when you stop thinking about them, they'll send you a text msg or they'll call you because they know that you just stopped thinking about them, its like a radar

Why is it that just when you get things together, you hear from the one person who could pull it all apart

SomeThin 'Bout old blue jeans and a baseball Cap
Fellas i get it and i admit it
It just dont get any better than that
Chicken Wings, Nascar and Football Monday Nights
Sometimes it's fun to be one fo the guys !

 We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to 'seize the day'. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves... That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying.

 "If you don't risk anything, you risk even more."

"Pick the day. Enjoy it - to the hilt. The day as it comes. People as they come... The past, I think, has helped me appreciate the present - and I don't want to spoil any of it by fretting about the future"
-Audrey Hepburn

“I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it's the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It's probably the most important thing in a person.”
-Audrey Hepburn

“I don't know that love changes. People change. Circumstances change.”
Nicholas Sparks

“Yes, I can put my head up and I can continue"
-Ashlee Simpson

I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me

"When you see someone you love with someone esle; your heart kind of falls to the ground"
-Ashlee Simpson

As you become more clear about who you really are, you'll be better able to decide what is best for you - the first time around.”


 He has such hot cold modes. It's like one second I feel like everythings perfect than the next minute I'm like what the heck happened

you don't even make me jealous it just makes me think your a pig..

 you'll always have that one guy that you coulda shoulda woulda, but never worked

keep your friends close && your enemies closer

in my perfect world, everytime you came back we'd be together

love the heart that hurts you; but never hurt the heart that loves you

Divine love always has met and always will meet every human need

it's so easy to get lost inside; a problem that seems so big at the time. while you're sitting around thinking about what you can't change. & worrying about all the wrong things. Time's flying by and moving so fast. You better make it count cause you can't get it back.

 & suddenly i become a part of your past; i'm becoming the part that i hope last's. never thought that you wanted to bring it down. i'd rather run away then to wait & see h0w this might end

sometimes its easier for me to pretend rather than face my feelings.  sometimes its easier to try to make it alone rather than risk getting hurt again.  sometimes its easier to be numb towards certain people so i dont let them get too close.  sometimes im scared but when i act numb towards you, it doesnt mean i dont care.  it means i care too much.

i'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
and i need you like a heart needs a beat but thats nothing new
i loved you with a fire red, notw its turning blue
and you say sorry like an angel, heavens not the thing for you,
but im afraid. it's too late to apologize, its too late.
timbaland - apologize

im holding on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground
and im hearing what you say, but i just cant make a sound
you tell me that you need me, then you go and cut me down
but wait, you tell me that your sorry didnt think id turn around and say
that its too late to apologize, its too late.

never leave the one y0u l0ve for the one y0u like
because the 0ne y0u like will leave y0u for the 0ne they l0ve.
the one y0u like will give y0u g00sebumbs;
the 0ne y0u l0ve will make y0u laugh & send shivers d0wn y0ur spine.
when the 0ne y0u like cries, y0u feel s0rry for them;
but when the 0ne y0u l0ve cries, you cry f0r them.
True l0ve d0esnt have a happy ending
because, true l0ve never ends.

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but
anyone can start today and make a new ending..."
-Maria Robinson-

" A triangle's not a friendly shape. It's a point, it has sharp edges; triangles hurt people."

Im NOT a perfect girl.
My hair doesnt always stay in place & I spill things a lot. Im pretty clumsy & sometimes I have a broken heart. My friends & I sometimes fight & maybe some days nothing goes right. but when I think about it & take a step back I remember how amazing life truly is & that maybe. just maybe. I like being unperfect....
L<3vEs me

[12 Sep 2007|10:54pm]

i've never been the kind that you'd call lucky.  always stumbling around in circles  but i must have stumbled into something.  look at me am i really alone with you.  i wake up feeling like my life's worth living.  can't recall when I last felt that way  guess it must be all this love you're giving.  never knew it could be like this but i guess some hearts just get all the right breaks.  some hearts have the stars on their side some hearts  just dont have it so easy.  some hearts just get lucky sometimes

At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize that the fairy tale is slightly different than your dream. The castle, well it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important that it’s happily ever after – just that it’s happy right now. See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. And once in a while, people may even take your breath away.

We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth right in front of our faces.

"wish your everything goes well" Eugene

I decided to never invest too much
emotion in one thing.
It's always a set-up
to the pain of losing them.

I believe in pink, i believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and i believe in miracles.
-Audrey Hepburn

 And trying anything you can feel that you can believe in.. may gods love with you aIways. i know I would apologize if I could see your eyes cause when you showed me myself I became someone else but I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need I picture you fast asleep a nightmare comes you cant keep awake. May gods love be with you always may gods love be with you. Cause if I find if I find my own way how much will I find I don't know anymore what its for im not even sure if there is anyone who is in the sun. - Joseph Arthur.

 "tequila loves me, even if you don't."
-- kenny chesney

"love's not a maybe thing, you know when you love someone"
- the hills

Responsibility, it really does suck. Unfortunately, once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn't go away. It can't be avoided. Either someone makes us face it or we suffer the consequences. And still adulthood has it perks. I mean the shoes, the sex, the no parents anywhere telling you what to do. That's, pretty damn good.
-greys anatomy

Homeboy wore combat boots to the beach.
-The HiLLs

lately i've been running, int0 our 0ld friends.
s0mewhere in the small talk, someone asked where y0u've been.
so i tell them what y0u told me And they can't believe we're through. They ask me what I'm doin' now
And in case you're wonderin' too I breathe in and breathe out; Put one foot in front of the other. & take one day at a time.

you can't only be in love with half of a person
-the hills

there's always that one guy that you will always go back to. even though you date other people in between, you are always in the back of your mind hoping to run into that guy
-Lauren [the hills]

Brittney y0ur a tramp.. i mean champ
                                     -drunk me

we g0t drunk, we got high, we drank tequila & watch the sunrise 

Realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure your still alive. Because you are. And that pain you feel? That's life. The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you, that somewhere out there is something better, and that something is worth fighting for.
- one tree hill

Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes & dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then most peope would say I'm a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life's dissappointments--learn to let go of the past.
I recognize that everyday wont be sunny but when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember it's only in the black of night that you can see the stars & those stars will lead you back home; so don't be afraid to make mistakes; stumble or fall, because most of the time the GREATEST REWARDS come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wished for...maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you, the rode is long but in the end the journey is the destination.
-one tree hill

you don't understand. i've been holding this in for a long time. and i need you t0 know, i love you, im in love with you

I wanted you to fight for me. And tell me that you would rather be alone than with anyone else

people that are ment to be together. always find a way to eachother

some people don't know the difference between right and wrong anymore. thats sad
In a good relationship, you can live without them, but when they are there, its because you want them to be. I think thats a great lesson for girls. You have to love yourself before anyone else can really love you.
- America Ferrera

be loved but never love. attach but never combine. trip but never
fall. to be broken its better than to be shattered. tell him of your
strength but never your past. be trustworthy but never trust. be
cracked but never open.

There's nothing more valuable than having someone in your life
that reminds you who you are. - America Ferreira

i hate that we drifted apart
just before the accident.
you're an amazing person
and you left such a huge
impact on those that you
left behind. you'll never ever
be forgotten, brandon lee withers.
i'll make sure of that.
we all miss you more & more everyday.
i just i could just have said goodbye & see you laugh one more time



I'm just a normal girl who is comfortable with who she is. I don't believe in changing yourself for anybody and I think it's really important for girls to be as comfortable with themselves as possible. Sometimes I look at what really young girls wear and I can't believe it- I have underwear that covers more than what some of them have on! I think it's important that girls know they can be attractive and sexy in a classy way and that guys actually like that more than when they see girls who show a lot of skin. For me, I like clothes and I like to wear them to cover up.
-Lauren [the hills]

"if a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
if he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
allow your intuition or spirit to save you from heartache.
stop trying to change yourself for a relationship
that's not meant to be. slower is better.
if he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
never live your life for a man
before you find what makes you truly happy.
if you feel like he is stringing you along,
then he probably is. if something bothers you, speak up.
never let a man know everything,
he will use it against you later.
you should not be the one doing all the bending.
you need time to heal between relationships,
baggage is not cute. make him miss you sometimes.
if he always knows where you are,
he'll take you for granted." -Oprah

I broke up with him because I was sad of crying everyday, like, I didn't want to cry anymore. And then I was crying because I was fighting. And now I'm crying because he's not here to make me stop.


d0nt get drunk, get fucking wasted

first l0ve, last love, still in love

what goes around comes around, fast
-corey smith

fuck you world im drinking again

 I could hold y0u in my arms forever & that still wouldn't be long enough

put me in your heart & go see everything then come back to me


L<3vEs me

[29 Aug 2007|07:15pm]

Be who you are and say what you feel,
Because those who mind don't matter
and those who matter don't mind.
            -- Dr. Seuss

I Look At You; You Look At Me
You Can't Help It You're Feeling Butterflies
Its obvious, We have Chemistry.
I think I know it cuz it feels so right.
We Have a bond thats unbreakable
we know that our love, its real
We are going to let it show, to the whole world
That I'm yours forever
       -Lionel Richie

I thought about calling you when I got off the plane
Every time I see this city through the clouds I get that way
Call me crazy for missing you like this but I do
By now I figured you had all your numbers changed
It's been at least a year since I called you up to say
We need to talk I got this job and I think I'm going to take it
Cause I been waiting all my life
For a break like this

It's my chance of a lifetime I just know it is
I gotta go find these dreams
Was the last thing that I said
I can see clear to the mountains as I head up our old street
I remember how we'd call in sick on days like these
And turn the music up roll the windows down and just drive
You talked me outta givin' up on myself so many times
Convinced me to get in while I could regrets hang heavy on the mind
But you never doubted me you kept pushing me
Saying you've been waiting all your life for a break like this
It's your chance of a lifetime you just know it is
you gotta go find those dreams
But you were wrong
Love was what I wanted all along
And now you're gone
But you were wrong

 Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you would do
And don't say, you simply lost your way
She may believe you but I never will
Never again

i'm glad you've made up your mind;
its kinda hurting on the inside.  if onLy i had something to say [[maybe]] if i prove how
i feel, wiLL it be safe to stay? because you know i didn't know what i wanted & i needed time on my own- i never thought i would miss you

I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

All the stars and boulevards ain't close enough for you..One last phone call from you, it wouldn't hurt much, just like to hear your voice and pretend to touch, any inch of you that hasn't said it all or read it all or sung my life away.

And then I'm left in bits recovering tectonics tremblings you get me every time. Why d'ya have to be so cute? It's impossible to ignore you. Must you make me laugh so much it's bad enough we get along so well. Say goodnight and go.Did you think you were alone?<33

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he's said

[I feel bad
That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I cant explain it
Maybe its just
Ive cried so much
Im tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad that I dont feel bad]

                     Rascal Flatts: i feel bad

She spilled her coffee, broke her shoelace. Smeared the lipstick on her face. Slammed the door and said "I'm sorry, I had a bad day again. " And she swears nothings wrong. 

I want you and i hate it.
I wanna get free. talk to me.
I can feel myself falling & i
wanted to be all you need.

I'm wanting this for sure
And I'll beg for nothing more

It's so complicated, I'm so frustrated.
I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away.
I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it? should I tell you how I feel?
Oh, I want you to know,
But then again I don't.
It's so complicated

I'd hold you in my arms until we came back down a smile that explodes I could never understand. 
        -- Joseph Arthur

my hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me,
so wont you kill me
so i die happy...
my heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury
or wear as jewlery
which ever you prefer...

I look up you're standing next to me what a feeling.What a feeling in my soul. Let the rain fall I dont care I'm yours and suddenly you're mine <333

Sweet little thing a constant in my thoughts. Sweet little your friends say im no good. sweet little thing they never understood the way id stay up all night the way i'd tremble in your arms.  - Lucero

your precious words intoxicate
a heart that aches; it's ok
you don't recall my past mistakes
you just say its ok.
this human mind can't calculate
your perfect grace, but it's ok.

L<3vEs me

[05 Aug 2007|10:29am]
&& everytime the phone rings
im always praying its you
calling me to say your sorry
and you never meant to hurt me
and your girlfriend doesnt come close to how much i mean to you

this is the clock up on the wall
this is the story of us all
this is the first sound of a new born child before he starts to crawl
this is the war that's never won
this is the soldier and his gun
this is the mother way to buy the fall praying for her son
pictures of you
pictures of me
hung up on your wall for the world to see
remind us all of what we used to be
there is a drug that cures it all
blocked by the governmental wall
we are the scientists inside the lab just waiting for the call
this earthquake weather has got me shaking
inside i'm high up and dry
cause there's still me >>>??
every secret moment
every stolen promise you've been (lead??)
confess to me
all that lies between us
all that lies between you and me
we are the boxers in the ring
we are the bells that never sing
there is a title we cant win no matter how hard we must swing
remind us all of what we could have been
what could have been
we could have been

I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
It's gettin' hard to
Be around you
Theres so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
This emptiness is killin' me
I wonder why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there, just never spoken
I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here

partyhard<3 &liveeasy

just cause you screw up, doesn't mean you're a screw up.
-miami ink

you can only push a girl away for so long
until she completely walks out of your life,so think again and make sure this is what you really want,  because once she turns around shes not coming back.

all i want is an apology for what you did & how y0u treated me

did you forget about all the things i said to you?
fight all the lies you said in your head.
you weren't strong enough to bring me down.
i loved you; you lost the best thing
i don't want you now so find love & lose yourself

iim letting g0 of the times, && gaining c0ntr0l
l00king t0 the future it can only get better :]

There’s a place in your heart, nobody's been,
Things nobody knows, Not even your friends,
Tell me bout your momma, your daddy, your hometown, Show me around,
I want see it all, don't leave anything out
And I want to go, down every road you've been.

Where your hopes and dreams, and wishes live,
Where you keep the rest of your life hid,
i want to know the guy behind those eyes
you first real kiss & first real love
You were scared. Show me where,
You learned about life, spent your summer nights, without a care.
I want to roll down main street, the back roads,
Like you did when you were a kid
What made you who you are,
Tell me what your story is.
I want to know, everything about you.

Life is sometimes in little pictures. You kind of flash back
to those moments, and in all those moments, you think about
the people you were with, the music you were listening to,
and that feeling comes back.
- Taylor Hanson

"...loneliness only wants you back here with me....common sense knows that you're not good enough for me..."
Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse......


I'm in the business of misery,
Let's take it from the top.
She's got a body like an hourglass that's ticking like a clock.
It's a matter of time before we all run out,
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth.

 In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
Cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I kn0w You've washed me white
Turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through
To get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel
About the truth Your word reveals
And I'm not holding onto You
But You're holding onto me
-Casting Crowns

pictures of you


the expected keeps us standing,
the unexpected changes our lives.

Celebrate we will cause life is short but sweet for certain

the truth is; i gave my heart away a l0ng time ag0. my wh0le heart. && i never really g0t it back
-sweet h0me alabama

Spiteful words can hurt your feelings but
silence breaks your heart. You can close
your eyes to the things you do not want to
see, but you cannot close your heart to the
things you do not want to feel.

we w0uld turn the music up & r0ll the wind0ws d0wn & just drive. y0u talked me 0utta givin' up 0n myself s0 many times. y0u made me learn things i never knew. i l00k back n0w we were'nt 0ne of my regrets, y0u were an0ther step

Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be; the people who suffer the most, are those who don't know what they want.

 "i want you, but i'm not giving in this time." 
          - michelle branch

Katharine McPhee lyrics 

hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
-michelle branch

"Never let a boy control you. You have to know yourself before you can give a part of yourself away." 
           - Ashlee Simpson

hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time

did y0u f0rget the ab0ut all the things i said t0 you?
fight all the lies y0u said in your head.
y0u weren't str0ng en0ugh t0 bring me d0wn.
i l0ved y0u; all 0f y0u but y0u l0st the best thing
n0w g0 find l0ve and l0se y0urself

Let's start out by starting over.
What did I expect?
You're no good at lying and I'm no good at comebacks.
You're so untouchable.
I'm oh-so-terrible at this.
I'm terrible at this, you know.
Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.
And I bet you've got every word I said memorized in your head.
And you'll use every one of them against me.
Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.
Tell all your friends about me.
Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.
I hope you choke on every word you spoke when you were screaming at me.
And realize how many times I've tried, but that's wishful thinking.
All I want is an apology for what you did and how you treated me.
Get me far away, or at least as far as this car will take me.
Tell all your friends about me.

Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.
Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.

L<3vEs me

[30 Jul 2007|07:33am]
I should be out in that driveway stopping you
Tears should be rolling down my cheek
And I don’t know why I’m not falling apart
Like I usually do
And how the thought of losing you’s not killing me
I feel bad
That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can’t explain it
Maybe it’s just
I’ve cried so much
I’m tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don’t feel bad
I can let myself be angry over wasted time
And sad about just throwing love away
Yeah I almost wish my heart was breaking
But I cant lie
All I want to do is turn the page

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you wanna go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile.
But more than anything, more than anything...
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more than you take.
But More than anything, yeah, more than anything...

From the moment that we met
My world was turned around
Upside down
To some degree I still regret
My memory for keeping you around
Girl I thought that you were mine
But my broken hearts been shattered
One too many times
And I don’t want to see you anymore
I’m just not that strong
I love it when you’re here,
But I’m better when you’re gone
I’m certain that I’ve given and oh how you can take
There’s no use in you looking
There’s nothing left for you to break
Baby please release me
Let my heart rest in pieces
Someone let you down again
So you turn to me
Your convenient friend
Oh but I know what you’re doing
And what you hope to find
I’ve seen it a thousand times
Oh the fire we had before
Are now just bitter ashes
Left scattered on the floor

Theres a rain that will never stop fallin
There a wall that I tried to take down
What I should have said just wouldn't pass my lips
So I held back and now we've come to this
And it's too late now
What do I do now that you're gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldn't say
I should have found a way to to tell you how I felt
Now the only one I'm telling is myself

If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state.
You can keep to yourself.
I'll keep out of your way.
And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down.
Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out.
*brand new-

I was scared but once i thought aboutm i let it go. Everything he said to me i guess i ought to know. We're all tired talk when it come to shove. We'll never be the same, never feel this way again. I'd give you anything but you want pain. All at once the music stopped the feeling went away. An ugly picture, me and you, but nothing I can change. The less you know the more you want

I never really wanted you to go. So many things you should have known. I guess for me theres just no hope. I never ment to be so cold .

I never thought I'd walk away from you. I did.But it's a false sense of accomplishment. Everytime time I quit_ JimmyEatsWorld-Pain

still trying t0 understand everything behind y0ur smile

I can't forget your style or your cynicism, somehow it was like you were the first to listen to everything we said.
My smile's an open wound without you...and my hands are tied to pages inked to bring you back.
_FaLl 0ut B0y

i can feel the pressure its getting cl0ser n0w i'm better 0ff without y0u

L<3vEs me

[28 Jul 2007|03:33pm]

l0ve me or hate me, itS stiLL an 0bsessi0n.l0ve me or hatE me that is the quEsti0n. iF y0u l0ve me then thAnk y0u . iF y0u haTe me then FUCK Y0U

a pictures w0rth a th0usand w0rds but n0t worth the w0rds i need t0 hear

t0night i wish y0u were here with mE.

ThE stars layy acr0ss the skyy s0 perfectly

aLL the times we used t0 sit underneath theM,

th0se summer nights && faLL in l0ve

d0 y0u remember the time when y0u & i were fine
& better then we'd ever been bef0re; y0u came back t0 me
after walking 0ut of my d00r. y0u w0uld call me bef0re y0u even
g0t h0me. h0w can it play s0 fast? never th0ught y0u'd be part
of my past.

state the 0bvi0us; i didn't get my perfect fantasy.
i realize y0u l0ve y0urself m0re then y0u could ever love me

y0u can watch me walk if y0u want t0,
I bet y0u want me back n0w d0n't y0u, d0n't y0u
I'm ab0ut t0 sh0w y0u just h0w missin me feels

I remember the way y0u made l0ve t0 me; like I was all y0u'd ever need. did y0u change your mind? i didn't change mind
n0w here I am trying to make sense of it all.
we were best friends & n0w we d0n't even taLk at aLL

aLL th0se games y0u tried t0 play
well they ain't g0nna w0rk 0n me n0w.
i put a barbed wire fence ar0und my <3 t0 keep y0u 0ut.
y0u thought i'd wait f0rever. baby get reaL

whats weird, is that day by day..

nothing seems to change. Yet, b4

you know everything's different.


L<3vEs me

[16 Jul 2007|09:37am]
matchbox Romance
L<3vEs me

[12 Jul 2007|08:11pm]

I''m tearing out the page, breathing f0r a change & its so good

Five Times August

So maybe I’ve got a lot to learn
Or maybe I’m just hanging on my words
Or maybe it’s not a big concern
But if I raised my hand
Would I understand why I’m better with you?
So maybe there’s not a lot to say
Or maybe I’m wrong doing things my way
Or maybe things will be okay
If I get it together
And do somethingclever
But make it better with you
So tell me where did I go wrong before you
Before you came along
Well, it seems like I was lost
You showed me how to do things right
Now I’m so glad that now you’re mine
So maybe there’s not a lot to do
Or maybe I’m just making myself confused
Or maybe I’ve got nothing to lose
But if I get out of line,
Just tell me you’re mine,
And how I’m better with you

i'm n0t coming bacK; n0t gonna react
i'm n0t doing shit f0r you, i'm n0t sitting around
whiLe you're tearing it d0wn around us
i'm n0t living a liE, whiLe y0u swim in denial
'cause you're already dead & g0ne,
youLL leave mE out on the curb like everyone
esLe bef0re you
i tried to get it right
but I wastin' my time
'cause you never compromised when it came to us
we struggled & feLL apart, we build it back to static start
The endless accusations I can't belive we made it that far. Waking on tomorrow ; its g0tta be better than this.

[turning to fall out of our lives,
spinning pictures:
blue screams and red kisses,
you sank into yourself
and I got lost somewhere in between]

Open up the book you beat me with again.
Read it off one sentence at a time.
I'm tired of all the lines,
Convictions and your lies.
What right do you have to point at me?
hes fly x33 i w0nt lie.

our hist0ry is s0mething we can't ignore;-)

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't I like your walk
Doesn't he know that I've had it memorized for so long
He sees everything in black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine
I could tell you his favorite color's green
He loves to argue; b0rn on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful; He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him; I'd lie

My heart is yours; my gift to you. You had It from the start; you shaped it & in one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet, that first step that you took was the worst. Since then youve walk away, and I still have these memories, but we'll never see what could have been. Remember, because that's all you can do. We'll never make another memory. I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together, so I wouldn't have to wake without you today, This time I thought things were real, You were a priority, was I an option? I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone. Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled. You knew from the beginning you had my heart, I'm sorry that wasn't enough. So, here we are, hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity. A broken heart is not what I wanted from this, but I guess I've learned from it. But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes? I don't consider this a mistake, I just wish the story didn't end this way, cause I'm still love with the person who helped me write it. Remember you held my hand like you'd never let it go? Remember when we talked about where we'd be in a year from now.
- Across Five Aprils.

We could be like onions and peppers in a sleeping bag fajita.
  -the honorary title

g0 ahead tell me y0u'LL leave again
youLL just c0me back running
h0lding you scarred heart in hand
its aLL the same,
& iLL take y0u for wh0 y0u are
if y0u take me f0r everything
d0 it aLL over again [its aLL the same]
h0urs slide & days g0 by
tiLL you decide t0 come.
& in between it always seems too long

When you wake I'll be a thousand miles away,
from the promises I made, and all I love.

a pictures w0rth a th0usand w0rds
but n0t worth the w0rds i need t0 hear
t0night i wish y0u were here with mE.
ThE stars layy acr0ss the skyy s0 perfectly
aLL the times we used t0 sit underneath theM,
th0se summer nights && faLL in l0ve


i'm n0t coming bacK; n0t gonna react
i'm n0t doing shit f0r you, i'm n0t sitting around
whiLe you're tearing it d0wn around us
i'm n0t living a liE, whiLe y0u swim in denial
'cause you're already dead & g0ne,
youLL leave mE out on the curb like everyone
esLe bef0re you

Open up the book you beat me with again.
Read it off one sentence at a time.
I'm tired of all the lines,
Convictions and your lies.
What right do you have to point at me?


it's strangE t0 me, iLL give y0u everything
but y0u d0n't kn0w what it means
& i hate t0 be the 0ne t0 disagree
but y0u d0n't kn0w what y0ur missing.
s0 i've laid it 0n the line, d0 y0u need a little time?
I guess I c0uLd understand that
[five times august]

L<3vEs me

[22 Jun 2007|02:21am]
[ mood | curious ]

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

L<3vEs me

[27 Mar 2006|10:01pm]
When you wake I'll be a thousand miles away, from the promises I made, and all I love.

i want you to notice
when im not around.
L<3vEs me

moire... [19 Mar 2006|08:38pm]
[turning to fall out of our lives,
spinning pictures:
blue screams and red kisses,
you sank into yourself
and I got lost somewhere in between]

All the stars and boulevards ain't close enough for you..One last phone call from you, it wouldn't hurt much, just like to hear your voice and pretend to touch, any inch of you that hasn't said it all or read it all or sung my life away.

Fate fell short this time your smile fades in the summer place your hand in mine I'll leave when I wanna. Look to the past and remember to smile. And maybe tonight I can breathe for awhile. I'm not in the scene I'm fallin' asleep but then all that it means is I'll always being dreaming of you.

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them..

Maybe I am a crowded mind I watch your eyes glaze over stared down at the floor you were amazing to me I was amazing to you but here we go again. Didn't you love me faster than the devil run me straight into the ground drowning inside your water drowning deep inside your ground Drowning in love and memories

I'm reading your note over again
There's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned. And i have to speculate that God himself did make us into corresponding shapes like puzzle pieces from the clay. And true, it make seem like a stretch, but its thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away when I am missing you to death.

I'd hold you in my arms until we came back down a smile that explodes I could never understand.
-- Joseph Arthur

some girls need to stop makin tired excuses.

At least this got better, like i promised it would, Our worlds still revolving, A new era brings news... So when will you be here? Is that you outside? .. Then together we'll face them, through this infinite night<3

your precious words intoxicate
a heart that aches; it's ok
you don't recall my past mistakes
you just say its ok.
this human mind can't calculate
your perfect grace, but it's ok.

There's that smile again
You fake it and i follow you right in
What a fool i've been
L<3vEs me

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